Saturday, December 24, 2011
Somebody asked me am i not bored? I was surprised as I don't get it why I should be bored while having a laptop that connects to internet.You really got plenty of things to do and it all depends on how far does your interests go. For a person who is indifferent about everything, even travelling to the most awesome place can't light him up. Yet for someone who loves life passionately, every tiny little drop of the vast ocean of life can make his day.
Recall my Christmas eve during the past few years, I had "silent night" almost every year. I normally hang out on Christmas day after the crazy people are dismissed. As I'm really scared of the hectic crowds, either in China or Malaysia.I'd rather stay at home, have a peaceful mind and devour myself in some Christmas music while enjoy doing something I like. And also, reserve energy for the "happy hour" session tomorrow.
When I went to buy my lunch today I said "Merry Christmas" to the hostess. She hurriedly apologized to me saying that because she is not Christian therefore she is not so aware of Christmas. I told her, not only Christians can celebrate Christmas. Christmas is a season when you show your beloved ones how much you care for them. Irrespective of your religion, your skin colour or your nationality, you are entitled to the joy of the season's greetings.
For Christians,silent night is holy night, and the Jesus Savior is born. I'm praying for a fruitful 2012 ahead. God bless!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
The first half of 2011 was all about sweat and stress. I experienced my final exams of ACCA, and thank God I made it through. Starts from June onward, I've been really enjoying life, meanwhile had a two-month post-exam nervous period waiting for my final result.Backpacked to Bangkok, which realised my dream of at least every year visit one place that i've never been to. My little escape was always sweet and unforgettable and i've already started to miss that feeling although it was only couple of months ago.
I went home after my Bangkok trip, stayed for one month, kept on dreaming of the result release date. I guess that's because i've carried too much on my shoulders. Not because i'm willing to, it's just life, we've got no choice. Fortunately I didn't let everybody down, my hilarity reached climax after 22nd August. After that God gave me a huge joke when i started my job hunting. I don't think words can describe how terrible i felt when i'm forced to face the truth that my nationality really got me tons of problems. My first choice of employment didn't even give a damn on my CV. Being a winner for so many years, it was really awful to be knocked down by reality. But sometimes we have to make some sacrifices and surrender. Life is not all smooth without a hitch and the storms make it more unexpected and challenging.
Finally, I guess God has given me what He thinks is the best for me. He taught me to forego those which are beyond my reach and grasp everything and every moment i'm able to control.I already adjusted my mentality to a "going to start work" mode, however, suddenly I got one more month to arrange my new life in Bandar Utama. I have no complaints for this. Seriously i guess i need more preparations, i need to train my strength, sharpen my weapon and polish my armour as I've been in the "cease-fire" mode for so long and January 2012 would be a perfect commencement of new phase of life!
Christmas is around the corner,I can smell it in the air everywhere i go. When i think back,i really cherish every Christmas gift i received through the years. I feel delighted and can't help of smiling when i heard the Christmas songs in the shopping malls. The Christmas trees are as great as before and they are gonna be better next year!
If 2012 is to be the end of world, let it be, live in the moment and not to worry about tomorrow!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Yesterday was my first paintball experience,I've heard about this game for long and I guess it was something like real person version of Counter Strike. But I've neglected some parts which ended up made me suffering.
The paintball field was at Taman Pertanian, Shah Alam, the so-called Agricultural Park of Malaysia. Besides plenty of green and an artificial lake, there was nothing much. The paintball field was pretty big though, almost a whole small mount.There were a few tents down the hill, for us to leave our stuff and equip ourselves. I'm following a friend who is a regular player, they have a team made up of 10 players,only 1 lady among them.
Gradually I was able to figure out why the gender proportion was so unbalanced:the stupid gas gun alone is about 3 to 4 kg with pallets. How do u expect a lady to carry it to run and hide agilely using a single hand? It was extremely after you are fully equipped as you can't really breath properly under the mask and with the vest and spare pallets on you you really look like a penguin. Only after a few seconds of running under the sun you will be sweating like an ice-cream. My spectacles gave me a lot of troubles again, it was not so comfortable wearing specs with the mask together and your breath will bring about fog on both your specs and mask.
Our first game was against an all-Malay-male team which everybody looked like bandits. I was so scared that they all will aim me as target (coz obviously i'm the only inexperienced idiot there). Therefore I told them frankly it was my first time, i'm a very very fresh newbie to beg for their compassion. Our commander decided our strategy and each person had a role to play. My job was to hide inside a pit,aim at our flag and shoot whoever bastard who wanted to take our flag.
After both teams are positioned, the judge shouted 10 seconds count down, when the word "start" came out from his mouth. I ran like mad with my heavy weapon towards my position. When I reached the pit, oh sh*t, it was full of mud and dirty water inside. I couldn't hesitate at all as enemies are approaching. My choice was simple, jump in or die.So there I was, in the pit, putting my elbow and gun on the table-like board, hiding behind the main wooden board in front, peek occasionally on what was happening.I only heard people were shouting and the sound of bullets flying. I could hardly saw any enemies but gradually there were people who were shot and out for this game. I only shot less than 20 bullets and suddenly i felt there was something like a pinch at my back, i was shot, luckily on my vest. Otherwise I swear I would be crying as the tiny pallet really can make you bleeding, it was really "painball".
I'm the lucky newbie as my friend told me, it's very rare for a first-comer to play a few games and was not hit on bare skin at all. I was a bit terrified to see my team mate's wound, it was as big as your thumb and not only bruised, but literally bleeding. I suddenly feel sad for the real soldiers as weapons are really ruthless, let alone under the real war scenario which was really kill or to be killed.
It was a unique experience and paintball was classified by me as "not-for-lady" activity.I can't imagine what will happen if it really hits on your ......balls? :p
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
We both thought that time flies faster than thunder. Everything felt like yesterday,I was still the little girl pondering at no where. It was him who showed me this bright path, I could not forget, I dare not to forget. I secretly took the oath to myself, I'd be the one, I can do it! 3 years later, yes, thank God that He really made me the one! Big C was more than satisfied with what I've achieved. Although through the years I rarely had his guidance, I have never let myself and the whole world down.
But today, after I've been through all the tangles, I'm standing at a cross-road, alone. Too many choices and there is only one me. The choice I make today will result in hundreds of different me in 10 years time. At this time, Big C's appearance was like giving me parachute before the airplane crashes. Again I have to thank God, it's really different to have a mentor that truly stands in my shoes and think for me. Big C showed me a direction again, and the next few years is left to me, see how I can accomplish the mission again.
Guidance was only given once in a few years time, but I will benefit for life.Thank you for being my mentor, wish you can also achieve what you long for. My heartiest prayers for you, my dear Big C all the best!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
正式交往第一天，他去车站接她，当她走出站口的刹那，远远的她看到那个自己朝思暮想的身影，有些手足无措的站在阳光底下，手里捧着一束白玫瑰，他心中的万分忐忑全部写在了脸上。女孩心中甜甜的，他居然还记得自己讨厌红玫瑰，这是她生平第一次收到白玫瑰，外面那些充满铜臭的男人哪里会欣赏白玫瑰的高贵雅致？接下来的几天里，每一秒钟都是甜蜜。晚上去爬山，到海边狂奔，留下了两人光着脚丫的相片，去唱k，去拍大头贴，所有无聊的小事都因为有了彼此而变得精彩非凡。他们乐此不疲的沉浸在这难得的二人世界中，忘记了一切。可当夜深人静的时候，她望着他躺在自己大腿上的那张俊俏的脸，不禁害怕了起来。这样的快乐还能持续多久？This is not life, this is stolen time.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
为什么呢？原因好多个，其一，老师的投影仪与电脑的接口有问题，一直黑屏，屏幕闪一闪的我就差没唱《小星星》。 其二，老师之一是个马来婆，该马来婆的口音特别特别难听，英文烂不说，用词又不准确，还一直结巴，而且还经常犯无心的口误，再加上讲课无条理，东一下西一下，搞得我晕头转向。我从来没有像今天这样这么讨厌一个人的英文，今天不知道是我自己心情的问题还是因为太久没上课不适应了，反正要有多不爽就有多不爽。其三，这该死的软件里面要用到很多double entry的知识，了解我的人都知道，本小姐虽然是ACCA affiliate，可是double entry说有多烂就有多烂。高级的consolidation我都会做，可是会偏偏栽在最基础的double entry上，这一切都归咎于我不是会计出身的，而且我的会计学老师是用一套自己的方法，完全没有涉及到double entry，于是今天我就当了一次睁眼瞎。而且那该死的马来婆居然还叫我来回答问题，我真是&%##￥%…*&！！！
几个月没有好好集中精神学东西，感觉脑袋锈掉了，很多知识都是似曾相识，颇有它认识我我不认识它的感觉。我突然有点害怕，我真的是designed for high level job的吗？最基本的account clerk做的东西我都不会！郁闷了一整天，心想下个星期六要怎么去考试，想到都烦，又有了当初读ACCA的时候的郁闷感。心情本来都不好了，回到家跟苏打绿诉苦，说我好想要他电脑知识的十分之一。结果该死的家伙把我好一个数落，说我这样是因为专业知识不过关，跟电脑水平差完全没关系，还说我这样的学习态度有问题，说得够透彻够露骨，我简直就是在数九寒冬里被一桶冷水从头淋到脚了！我想赌气，不吃晚饭，可是我的胃又直说no，这个emo得不是一般哪！哪里还有心情准备要过中秋佳节呢？
Sunday, September 4, 2011
I read the news how this song came about,as expected, Adele had her own heart-breaking stories. I reckon it's impossible to write about other people's story with such deep emotions. Unless the leading actor is you yourself. Every piece of memories is a pinch on the softest part of your heart,only you know how bitter it tastes yet you still don't have slightest of regret. Only in this way, overwhelmed in the endless sorrow, a master piece engendered.
There are not so many contraltos out there, let alone those who is so infectious and can express their emotions so thoroughly. Keep up the good work Adele and wish you find your "someone" soon...
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I burst into tears when I saw the result. It was quite close to a howl which came from the bottom of my heart as I totally lost control. I could not remember when was the last time I cried, either because of my studies or my mum or any relationship issue. I've been holding back for so long, 3 years, I must admit I devoted a lot to ACCA although I still managed to enjoy life whenever I got chance. I guess I have never treated study so seriously in my 25 years life. But for something like ACCA, I really showed my commitment, I held its "hand" and said "I will" with no regrets.
That few minutes I spent wailing was the most unforgettable moment in life. I guess those two 58 marks means more than they look. The scene of July 2008 appeared again and it was so fresh and real just like yesterday.I was totally overwhelmed and I really drenched myself in the bitter sweet memories through the years. After I calmed down, then only I realised I should inform Nora about this good news which she has been waiting for years.
Nora was still in hospital and she appeared to be extremely calm. I asked her to give a guess on how the result is. And after I told her that I graduated in a unmindful tone, she said she knew I could do it, full of proud and confidence. I really thank God that I didn't let her down, or else I think I may kill myself for being such an unfilial daughter.
The ending of one phase is the starting point of another. After yesterday my personal goal has totally changed. I just started to hold the pen to write another page of my life. It's going to be a brand new world and a brand new me. I feel like I've grown up overnight, or I should say, forced to. Anyway, I'm quite look forward to what is waiting for me. Full of aspiration and ambition, just want to prove myself to the world.
Here I am, this is me, the rest is still unwritten...
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
However, an over frequently hanging-out life does cause some problems. Sometimes you can only calm down and meditate when you are alone and that's why most great people are lonely. I guess I have overlooked many things in life and it's very likely to make wrong decisions, if there is any.
I remembered I have talked to God about certain issues during my stint of ACCA studies. God was very supportive as he always is, he gave me everything I asked for. Now the end of my student life is just around the corner. Again, God keeps his words, and I believe things will only get more and more smooth. (Oh,fcuk,I deeply feel that my English has deteriorated since I finished my exam!) Suddenly feel a bit regret although I swear I'd never do so. I reckon I've been enjoying too much and wasted my precious time which should be utilised more wisely. The stack of unread SA magazine and the my current snail reading speed is the perfect evidence.
Now I've grown up, or I assume so. Many things we have to face it with sense rather than letting emotions to take control. But at the same time it means we have lost some boldness and thoughtless which should belong exclusively to youngsters, which literally means we are no longer young, unwillinglly, yet we have to admit.
A hell of mess is going on, a even bigger mess is yet to come, get ready and enjoy the thunder in the storm!
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
Wanted to scribble something long ago, however due to various reasons, time, energy, the prohibition of accessing blogspot in China, all kinds of excuses. Waited until all the eagerly pouring feelings are gone, yet memories still enshrines.For a complicated mixture of sensitive and sensible creature like me, although sensitivity has taken up a major part, the remaining pathetic sense still can guide me to make sensible decisions.
It's a bit hard to recall every details in those days, but I do know is that I've experienced,learned many tiny things which may not raise your attention. My 2nd sweet escape feels as good as first one, but I've learnt something fresh, that is, there really can be 2 drifters off to see the world together. I've met a living example: a sweet couple from Taiwan who have been together for 23 years and now they still seem like they are enjoying honeymoon.Maybe I'm asking too much again. God allows us to pray,but not for something that is too over. I don't know whether my prayer is too extreme, no matter what I still consider it as moderate.
Finally,I've visited Malaysia, Singapore and Thailand which is the typical first overseas tour that a Chinese would select.I had the urge to write a comparison between the 3 capital cities in SEA. Unwillingly but no choice, from many aspects, KL ranks the bottom.If anybody is unconvinced, a detailed analysis can be performed upon requirement.
Suddenly wonder how important is the social network to us? I didn't log on to my facebook for 3 weeks and I was like a person in dessert craving for a drop of rainfall. How much on earth does it affect our life? Maybe we are just enjoying other people's attention and uploading snapshots everywhere on our mobile phones. I've never calculated how much time I spent on it, don't dare to do so as well. I had to admit, modern science is really addictive. Ask those who just bought an ipad 2 then you will know what I'm talking about.
Well just realised insofar I'm just mumbling the words that only I can understand. It's all right, my birthday is just around the corner. I'm sure I'll have mood to do a proper post after that.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
Well its the first day of May,people are celebrating their holidays worldwide. Its a long weekend as well but thats not the point I want to bring in.What does May mean to an ACCA student? Its our intensive revision time and exam is just around the corner. But this round it is very special for me,May 2011,it will be my last month of fulltime student sweet time in my entire life! Wow,that sounds a bit serious,coz as usual,what we cherish the most is actually what we can't have. I told myself million times that I gotta really catch this last chance to enjoy.
However,there is something else that I need to consider,it's my last 2 papers this round,will I die or survive?Among all the candidates I know,only 2 managed to clear all papers without a single failure. That's a very scary percentage. I am scratching my head trying to figure out how possible it is for me to become the 3rd one. The opportunity cost of such failure that I have to bear is simply just too high: 6 months salary plus tuition fee and exam fee. Out of curiosity,i divided it by 30 to see how much each day costs. And the result is really stunning...
Pity me as a foreigner in Malaysia,i have no choice because the local big4 firms cant recruit me due to government policy. I have to find my own way out,no choice. Cruel but thats the way it is...FIGHTO!
May 2011,month of GOLD...
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Can we survive without a laptop? I dont know. I just automatically wanna turn it on after I reach home and drown myself in the endless radiation. Still, a stupid phone cannot fully replace a laptop. I have never tried tablet before,dont dare to comment much. Just pray hard that my laptop in the ICU still can be cured. God bless...
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
This holyshit for SG958 killed millions of my brain cells and it was "The holy mother of Christ" according to somebody.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Didn't notice that more than a month has passed since my last post. Lazy as I've always been, blogging seems to be the last on my "to-do list" especially during festival season.