Silent night, holy night

Today is Christmas eve of 2011 and it happened to fall on a Saturday which resulted in a long weekend holiday. Yesterday since noon time, I've experienced how horrendous the traffic jam was. Along federal highway,heading towards Midvalley Mega Mall, the cars are crawling like caterpillars. Walking is definitely way faster than stuck in the jam. So I altered my plan to directly head back home after having lunch with friends. I can't imagine how bad it will be when it comes to tonight's countdown time. That's why today I decided to relax at home.

Somebody asked me am i not bored? I was surprised as I don't get it why I should be bored while having a laptop that connects to internet.You really got plenty of things to do and it all depends on how far does your interests go. For a person who is indifferent about everything, even travelling to the most awesome place can't light him up. Yet for someone who loves life passionately, every tiny little drop of the vast ocean of life can make his day.

Recall my Christmas eve during the past few years, I had "silent night" almost every year. I normally hang out on Christmas day after the crazy people are dismissed. As I'm really scared of the hectic crowds, either in China or Malaysia.I'd rather stay at home, have a peaceful mind and devour myself in some Christmas music while enjoy doing something I like. And also, reserve energy for the "happy hour" session tomorrow.

When I went to buy my lunch today I said "Merry Christmas" to the hostess. She hurriedly apologized to me saying that because she is not Christian therefore she is not so aware of Christmas. I told her, not only Christians can celebrate Christmas. Christmas is a season when you show your beloved ones how much you care for them. Irrespective of your religion, your skin colour or your nationality, you are entitled to the joy of the season's greetings.

For Christians,silent night is holy night, and the Jesus Savior is born. I'm praying for a fruitful 2012 ahead. God bless!

想念家乡的味道

重庆人，十个有九个都是吃货。每天都在想，中午要吃什么，晚上要吃什么。身边林林总总的选择让人目不暇接，随口一数，川菜从主食到小吃，美味一大堆。离开家乡这些年，人们不止一次的问我，你想家吗？我的回答总是让人大吃一惊：哦，不太想家，但是想家里的吃的。因为重庆对于我而言，除了家人之外，值得我留恋的就只有美食了。家人可以每天在网上见面，但是对美食的想念不能单单靠“看”来解决，望梅止渴的结果是越望越渴。

一个人住在新家，百无聊赖，朋友们要么忙工作要么忙考试，每天没事在家翘脚的除了我没几个。我独自一人在这遥远的Damansara，远离我熟悉的Sunway，我的圈子，难免有点寂寞。这个时候就会不由自主的想念家乡的味道了。何洁送我的萝卜干我还很不舍的留着2包，以备不时之需。昨天晚上躺在床上，突然想吃川菜，这种凭空而出的念头曾经有过，那时候我就悲催的爬起来看电脑里面川菜的照片。而现在，越来越多的川菜馆在吉隆坡拔地而起，望梅止渴倒是不必。但问题是，要找到几个志同道合能吃辣椒的友人实属不易，马来西亚人对辣椒的免疫力不是个个都像重庆人那么厉害，而且本地菜肴辣的感觉不一样，所以对于他们而言是蛮大的挑战。

减轻我的思念之情其实有很多途径，除了吃川菜之外，还可以吃川味的零食。现在的中国人是越来越会做生意了，在吉隆坡开了网店售卖国内的各种零食小吃以及调味品。不用我说你都猜得到，老干妈系列是必不可少的，还有各大品牌的方便面，米线，粉丝等等。我最爱的白家方便粉丝以1块9一包的价格高居方便面的榜首。我不记得国内卖多少钱了，好像是2块钱人民币吧，坐个飞机过来，价格就翻倍了，不过也好，可以一解我相思之苦。50块免费送货，我随便逛了几圈点了几点购物车就已经一大堆东西，早就超过50块了。网购有时候比真实的购物更加花钱如流水，因为你边看边点，你根本不会意识到购物车里已经有多少东西了。不像现实生活中，如果你的手推车已经满了，相信你肯定会收手。

美食没有绝对的，只有相对的，每个人都会觉得自己从小吃到大的食物是最好吃的。我的味蕾比较多元化，可以接受各种各样的食物，对于其中的某些也是有偏好。然而我觉得今生今世无法改变的，就是对家乡味道的执着和永恒不变的想念。

The last month of 2011

Out of sudden looking at the calendar, it has come to the last month of 2011. Time is really scary, by the time we have time to look at it, it's already gone long ago. Every year end I will do my accustomed reflect of the whole year. Here comes the question that i'm most unwilling to face. What have I done during 2011?

The first half of 2011 was all about sweat and stress. I experienced my final exams of ACCA, and thank God I made it through. Starts from June onward, I've been really enjoying life, meanwhile had a two-month post-exam nervous period waiting for my final result.Backpacked to Bangkok, which realised my dream of at least every year visit one place that i've never been to. My little escape was always sweet and unforgettable and i've already started to miss that feeling although it was only couple of months ago.

I went home after my Bangkok trip, stayed for one month, kept on dreaming of the result release date. I guess that's because i've carried too much on my shoulders. Not because i'm willing to, it's just life, we've got no choice. Fortunately I didn't let everybody down, my hilarity reached climax after 22nd August. After that God gave me a huge joke when i started my job hunting. I don't think words can describe how terrible i felt when i'm forced to face the truth that my nationality really got me tons of problems. My first choice of employment didn't even give a damn on my CV. Being a winner for so many years, it was really awful to be knocked down by reality. But sometimes we have to make some sacrifices and surrender. Life is not all smooth without a hitch and the storms make it more unexpected and challenging.

Finally, I guess God has given me what He thinks is the best for me. He taught me to forego those which are beyond my reach and grasp everything and every moment i'm able to control.I already adjusted my mentality to a "going to start work" mode, however, suddenly I got one more month to arrange my new life in Bandar Utama. I have no complaints for this. Seriously i guess i need more preparations, i need to train my strength, sharpen my weapon and polish my armour as I've been in the "cease-fire" mode for so long and January 2012 would be a perfect commencement of new phase of life!

Christmas is around the corner,I can smell it in the air everywhere i go. When i think back,i really cherish every Christmas gift i received through the years. I feel delighted and can't help of smiling when i heard the Christmas songs in the shopping malls. The Christmas trees are as great as before and they are gonna be better next year!

If 2012 is to be the end of world, let it be, live in the moment and not to worry about tomorrow!

步步惊心

俗话说，演戏的是疯子，看戏的是傻子。如今我便做了一件自己不常做的傻事，追一部名叫《步步惊心》的电视剧。没日没夜的几天下来，我自己也傻在其中，泪点超低，被白赚了几公升眼泪。话说穿越剧倒也不是没见过，好多年前变看过了《穿越时空的爱恋》，如今也不大记得具体的情节，只知道穿越到古代的现代人都可以凭着对历史的了解和比古人聪明的大脑混得不错。若曦是真的混得不错，可是这一路看来，我感慨万千，心中除了痛，还是痛。

面对温柔体贴的八爷多年来的付出，女孩的心难免被俘获。可是若曦因为知道历史，她因为爱而要求八爷退出皇位的争夺，然而老八多年来被冷落，压制在内心的对权力无法抵挡的欲望令他毅然选择放弃了若曦。我没有恨他，说白一点，男人嘛，总该是要以事业为重的。就算他是活在今天，事业与爱情之间，事业也应该是摆在前面的。只是觉得有些遗憾和无奈，现实残酷无情的逼着我们做出一些我们不情愿的选择。

四爷是不多话的人，深沉内敛但是却在小事上看得到他的细心。他为了若曦可以什么都豁出去，伤在若曦身上他的心会更痛。一个这么严肃认真的人肯在一个女人花这样的功夫，就连石头心肠都会被感动吧。看到他为若曦做的一切，我的眼泪一个劲儿的流。说是羡慕吧，也有，说是怀念吧，也有，感慨也有，感动也有...

天朝的皇宫，在里面有多难生存，恐怕是现代人难以想象的。宫里的人多嘴杂，作为一个小奴才真的需要谨言慎行。我可以想象那种说一个字，做一个动作都要经过深思熟虑的情形是多么的熬心。难怪若曦觉得紫禁城是个牢笼，在待了二十多年之后，终于忍不了要去寻求原本属于自己的自由。若曦虽然聪明伶俐，处事周全圆滑，可是她也是个性情中人，对朋友肝胆相照，对爱情勇敢执着，她的感性是最终让她痛苦的原因。或许是因为有太多的人和事是她放不下的，这才注定了雍正登基之后，她也无心享受这最后难得的胜利和幸福。她的固执倔强使她把许多难处都憋在心里，宁可雍正误会，宁可牺牲掉幸福，去换回她想要的自由。然而，你我都清楚，自由并不等于幸福，看你自己怎么想罢了。引用戏里一句话：凡事没有对错，只是立场不同而已。

回头看步步也让我做了不少功课，历史方面，文学方面，让我顿时间觉得，不知道从何时开始，我对祖国的渊源文化已经那么疏远了。曾经烂熟于心的诗词歌赋，如今只是能偶尔记起来几个片段，再也没有心思去做当年的那个所谓的文艺青年，好久没有醉心于文学的魅力，笔下也日渐无光。

人生若只如初见，那该多好啊，便没有了后来这一切的冤孽...

我的纪念日

今天是我自己的纪念日，没有人知道，没有庆祝，看似平凡的日子，却是我自己人生的一大里程碑和转折点。回首往事总是让我毛骨悚然，时间真的过得太快了！抗日战争都打出来了，我呢？
明天，将是我的第一仗，希望我能发挥出水平，把它打得漂亮！随时提醒自己，身边的酸性人物很多，“敌人亡我之心不死”，要提高警惕睁大眼睛分辨是非黑白。如果一些人的嘴巴里非要说出负面的话，我虽然没有权利叫他闭嘴，但是我有权利选择不听！静静的，听上帝的训导，更多的和祂交流沟通，保持灵魂的平静，坦然的面对一切，上帝爱我，加油！

Paintball, Painball

Yesterday was my first paintball experience,I've heard about this game for long and I guess it was something like real person version of Counter Strike. But I've neglected some parts which ended up made me suffering.

The paintball field was at Taman Pertanian, Shah Alam, the so-called Agricultural Park of Malaysia. Besides plenty of green and an artificial lake, there was nothing much. The paintball field was pretty big though, almost a whole small mount.There were a few tents down the hill, for us to leave our stuff and equip ourselves. I'm following a friend who is a regular player, they have a team made up of 10 players,only 1 lady among them.

Gradually I was able to figure out why the gender proportion was so unbalanced:the stupid gas gun alone is about 3 to 4 kg with pallets. How do u expect a lady to carry it to run and hide agilely using a single hand? It was extremely after you are fully equipped as you can't really breath properly under the mask and with the vest and spare pallets on you you really look like a penguin. Only after a few seconds of running under the sun you will be sweating like an ice-cream. My spectacles gave me a lot of troubles again, it was not so comfortable wearing specs with the mask together and your breath will bring about fog on both your specs and mask.

Our first game was against an all-Malay-male team which everybody looked like bandits. I was so scared that they all will aim me as target (coz obviously i'm the only inexperienced idiot there). Therefore I told them frankly it was my first time, i'm a very very fresh newbie to beg for their compassion. Our commander decided our strategy and each person had a role to play. My job was to hide inside a pit,aim at our flag and shoot whoever bastard who wanted to take our flag.

After both teams are positioned, the judge shouted 10 seconds count down, when the word "start" came out from his mouth. I ran like mad with my heavy weapon towards my position. When I reached the pit, oh sh*t, it was full of mud and dirty water inside. I couldn't hesitate at all as enemies are approaching. My choice was simple, jump in or die.So there I was, in the pit, putting my elbow and gun on the table-like board, hiding behind the main wooden board in front, peek occasionally on what was happening.I only heard people were shouting and the sound of bullets flying. I could hardly saw any enemies but gradually there were people who were shot and out for this game. I only shot less than 20 bullets and suddenly i felt there was something like a pinch at my back, i was shot, luckily on my vest. Otherwise I swear I would be crying as the tiny pallet really can make you bleeding, it was really "painball".

I'm the lucky newbie as my friend told me, it's very rare for a first-comer to play a few games and was not hit on bare skin at all. I was a bit terrified to see my team mate's wound, it was as big as your thumb and not only bruised, but literally bleeding. I suddenly feel sad for the real soldiers as weapons are really ruthless, let alone under the real war scenario which was really kill or to be killed.

It was a unique experience and paintball was classified by me as "not-for-lady" activity.I can't imagine what will happen if it really hits on your ......balls? :p

My ACCA convocation 2011

Today is my big day! I reckon it's only less important than wedding and more important than any other sort of ceremony! Tiring but enjoyable day! Woot~ Plenty of photos were taken! <3

Reunion with a long lost friend

Last night I burnt pretty much mid-night oil while I wasn't really feeling so well. It's all because of the "reunion" with a long lost friend who is thousands miles apart. It has been at least a year since I last talked to him which was before he stepped onto the land which is the farthest continent from Asia Pacific.

We both thought that time flies faster than thunder. Everything felt like yesterday,I was still the little girl pondering at no where. It was him who showed me this bright path, I could not forget, I dare not to forget. I secretly took the oath to myself, I'd be the one, I can do it! 3 years later, yes, thank God that He really made me the one! Big C was more than satisfied with what I've achieved. Although through the years I rarely had his guidance, I have never let myself and the whole world down.

But today, after I've been through all the tangles, I'm standing at a cross-road, alone. Too many choices and there is only one me. The choice I make today will result in hundreds of different me in 10 years time. At this time, Big C's appearance was like giving me parachute before the airplane crashes. Again I have to thank God, it's really different to have a mentor that truly stands in my shoes and think for me. Big C showed me a direction again, and the next few years is left to me, see how I can accomplish the mission again.

Guidance was only given once in a few years time, but I will benefit for life.Thank you for being my mentor, wish you can also achieve what you long for. My heartiest prayers for you, my dear Big C all the best!

他和她的故事 Part 2

当他得知她再次堕入红尘之后，心如刀割，那种锥心的痛不光是因为心疼她，同时也因为恨自己不争气。她太傻了，完全没有为自己的将来打算过，趁着年轻就狠命剥削自己余下的青春。痛到深处无法忍受了，他再也压抑不住了，做了一个重要的决定：他要守护她。他想要在她完成使命之后得到她完整的人和完整的心。他在费尽了千方百计，使出浑身解数之后，终于得到了她的答允，他们俩决定要抛开所有世俗，义无反顾的继续这段恋情。

正式交往第一天，他去车站接她，当她走出站口的刹那，远远的她看到那个自己朝思暮想的身影，有些手足无措的站在阳光底下，手里捧着一束白玫瑰，他心中的万分忐忑全部写在了脸上。女孩心中甜甜的，他居然还记得自己讨厌红玫瑰，这是她生平第一次收到白玫瑰，外面那些充满铜臭的男人哪里会欣赏白玫瑰的高贵雅致？接下来的几天里，每一秒钟都是甜蜜。晚上去爬山，到海边狂奔，留下了两人光着脚丫的相片，去唱k，去拍大头贴，所有无聊的小事都因为有了彼此而变得精彩非凡。他们乐此不疲的沉浸在这难得的二人世界中，忘记了一切。可当夜深人静的时候，她望着他躺在自己大腿上的那张俊俏的脸，不禁害怕了起来。这样的快乐还能持续多久？This is not life, this is stolen time.

她万万没有想到的是，自己最好的朋友早就洞悉了他跟自己之间的联络，而且非常不满自己偷偷跑来找他，当她还在考虑到底要不要跟好姐妹坦白的时候，好姐妹已经发飙了，只给她丢下了一句：他跟我，只能选一个。到底是多年来深厚的友情重要，还是这不知道有没有未来的爱情重要？她夹在中间左右为难，爱上他是情非得已，可是她又不愿意割舍跟好姐妹的这段情意。她有些后悔，后悔自己当初鲁莽的越界，可是情到深处身不由己，有些事也不是她能控制的。在经过一番深思熟虑之后，她决定离开他，她找了个万能的借口来搪塞他，说她妈妈不同意他们在一起，殊不知在她掉头离开的时候，泪却忍不住一步一步的在滴落。为什么你走进了我的世界，只给了我短暂得像烟火般的美好？烟火的绚烂过后，留下的是无限的失落和惆怅。他清楚的意识到，比起他来，好姐妹对于她而言更重要。他感觉自己顿时间从天堂坠入了地狱，你那该死的温柔要让我怎么戒？于是他用香烟和酒精来麻醉自己，把自己关在房间，对着空洞的四面墙壁，一个人吃一个人睡，他每天听着伤感的旋律，回想过去的种种：第一次跟女孩用同一个勺子吃冰淇林，第一次被伤害，一切她的好，她的坏。空虚和寂寞刺穿他的身躯，一口一口的咬着他那颗受伤的心。而她，变得害怕付出，同时变本加厉的爱上了被爱的感觉。

他和她的故事 Part 1

这篇博文是我一个朋友拜托我写的小说，我已经拖了很久很久了，不好意思再继续拖下去，一定要在我开始工作之前把这个任务完成才可以，不然开始地狱生活之后我是没时间也没心情做这么闲情逸致的事了。

故事发生在那个沿海的小城市，小小的她天真快乐，家境虽不算富裕，却也殷实，过着衣食无忧的生活，旁人煞是羡慕。不料十八岁那年，家道中落，她作为家里的老大，必须要用稚嫩的双肩来扛起家庭沉重的负担。为生活所迫，有一副漂亮脸蛋的她堕入了红尘，混迹于市里各大酒吧迪厅，凭着美貌和比一般红尘女子聪明的脑袋，她从一个普通的公关小姐，变成了红遍一时的交际花。灯红酒绿的花花世界中，她看到弟弟妹妹充满期待渴望读书的双眼，看到父母那被债务压得直不起来的腰背。有钱能使鬼推磨，她不知道钱是不是万能的，可她知道没有钱是万万不能的，于是便更加坚定了她在这条不归路上继续走下去的信念。

他是俊俏得让人心疼的孩子，高挺的鼻梁透着男人的英气，浑身透着让人无法自拔的神秘气息。他们很早就认识了，相识没多久，她就突然间消失了。在杳无音讯了三年之后，偶然一天他在网上看到一篇博文，他下意识就觉得那肯定是她写的，于是联络了作者。天下就有这么巧合的事，果不其然是出自她手。他们几乎是异口同声，八百年没见了，你还好吗？从那以后，几乎每天他们都会同时上线，虽然身隔千万里，电脑把他们之间的距离缩小到了只有不到一米。两个人的心中都有一分牵挂，那种感觉很微妙，友人以上，恋人未满。她自己也不清楚，为什么自己内心会把那个远在家乡的他当做自己的蓝颜知己。回想过去，他的女友是她最好的朋友，她表面上装作没事，可是内心的痛是无人知晓无法呐喊的。为了不背叛自己的好朋友，她强忍着多年来自己的情愫，把这份情埋在了心底最深处。

偶然有一次机会，包养她的老男人出差去到他的城市，她跟随一起去了。分别多年之后，两人终于得以重聚，他们只是像普通朋友一样的吃饭逛街拍照，聊天的话题很随意很轻松。她觉得跟他虽然多年未见，但却好像昨天才见的老友，一切都是那么熟悉而自然，在一起的时候时间过得特别快，短短的几天眨眼就过了。她怀着心中的万般无奈，跟随老男人离开，回到了金丝雀的鸟笼中。可是她已经不能继续做当初那个逆来顺受乖乖的金丝雀，她再也无法忍受心中的纠缠，毕竟，女人的身体和灵魂是分不开的。她决定离开老男人，可是迫于生存的压力，她只有继续回到那个物质流飞的场所，用纸醉金迷来麻痹自己脆弱的灵魂。

未完待续

Audit express workshop失意，k歌房得意！

在久违了课堂将近4个月之后，今天起了个大早，重返母校，参加为期一天的audit express workshop。原本是兴致勃勃，满心欢喜，可是才开始了几分钟，我就已经觉得超级不爽了。

为什么呢？原因好多个，其一，老师的投影仪与电脑的接口有问题，一直黑屏，屏幕闪一闪的我就差没唱《小星星》。 其二，老师之一是个马来婆，该马来婆的口音特别特别难听，英文烂不说，用词又不准确，还一直结巴，而且还经常犯无心的口误，再加上讲课无条理，东一下西一下，搞得我晕头转向。我从来没有像今天这样这么讨厌一个人的英文，今天不知道是我自己心情的问题还是因为太久没上课不适应了，反正要有多不爽就有多不爽。其三，这该死的软件里面要用到很多double entry的知识，了解我的人都知道，本小姐虽然是ACCA affiliate，可是double entry说有多烂就有多烂。高级的consolidation我都会做，可是会偏偏栽在最基础的double entry上，这一切都归咎于我不是会计出身的，而且我的会计学老师是用一套自己的方法，完全没有涉及到double entry，于是今天我就当了一次睁眼瞎。而且那该死的马来婆居然还叫我来回答问题，我真是&%##￥%…*&！！！

几个月没有好好集中精神学东西，感觉脑袋锈掉了，很多知识都是似曾相识，颇有它认识我我不认识它的感觉。我突然有点害怕，我真的是designed for high level job的吗？最基本的account clerk做的东西我都不会！郁闷了一整天，心想下个星期六要怎么去考试，想到都烦，又有了当初读ACCA的时候的郁闷感。心情本来都不好了，回到家跟苏打绿诉苦，说我好想要他电脑知识的十分之一。结果该死的家伙把我好一个数落，说我这样是因为专业知识不过关，跟电脑水平差完全没关系，还说我这样的学习态度有问题，说得够透彻够露骨，我简直就是在数九寒冬里被一桶冷水从头淋到脚了！我想赌气，不吃晚饭，可是我的胃又直说no，这个emo得不是一般哪！哪里还有心情准备要过中秋佳节呢？

于是，我决定了，要在本星期之内第二次去唱k！（第三次将会是后天晚上，汗。。。）感谢牵牛花先生的友情演出，不过今晚我将负责打酱油和做俯卧撑，顺便偶尔伴唱一下，打算好好享受牵牛花先生的演唱会！失意了，总是需要换一个舞台来得意一下的嘛，恩！！！

Someone like you

Accidentally heard Adele's on a friend's facebook link. My heart was captured by her affectionate voice and the way she interpreted the song. Her voice was kind of addictive by itself and with the power of the lyrics, the whole thing can be regarded as a "tear bomb". I have not done the stupid thing of looping on a single song nonstop for a very long time. Nowadays mostly the songs are just meteor and you can hardly remember them after weeks. It's quite difficult to find a modern vintage as majority of the billboard hits are club songs with very least of connotation.

I read the news how this song came about,as expected, Adele had her own heart-breaking stories. I reckon it's impossible to write about other people's story with such deep emotions. Unless the leading actor is you yourself. Every piece of memories is a pinch on the softest part of your heart,only you know how bitter it tastes yet you still don't have slightest of regret. Only in this way, overwhelmed in the endless sorrow, a master piece engendered.

There are not so many contraltos out there, let alone those who is so infectious and can express their emotions so thoroughly. Keep up the good work Adele and wish you find your "someone" soon...

Another phase of life

Yesterday, 22nd August 2011, is the day to be enshrined.I got my result for the final 2 papers of ACCA, I passed both, which literally means I graduated and I am ACCA affiliate now! Since then, my status has changed from a full-time student to be an auditor/accountant going-to-be.

I burst into tears when I saw the result. It was quite close to a howl which came from the bottom of my heart as I totally lost control. I could not remember when was the last time I cried, either because of my studies or my mum or any relationship issue. I've been holding back for so long, 3 years, I must admit I devoted a lot to ACCA although I still managed to enjoy life whenever I got chance. I guess I have never treated study so seriously in my 25 years life. But for something like ACCA, I really showed my commitment, I held its "hand" and said "I will" with no regrets.

That few minutes I spent wailing was the most unforgettable moment in life. I guess those two 58 marks means more than they look. The scene of July 2008 appeared again and it was so fresh and real just like yesterday.I was totally overwhelmed and I really drenched myself in the bitter sweet memories through the years. After I calmed down, then only I realised I should inform Nora about this good news which she has been waiting for years.

Nora was still in hospital and she appeared to be extremely calm. I asked her to give a guess on how the result is. And after I told her that I graduated in a unmindful tone, she said she knew I could do it, full of proud and confidence. I really thank God that I didn't let her down, or else I think I may kill myself for being such an unfilial daughter.

The ending of one phase is the starting point of another. After yesterday my personal goal has totally changed. I just started to hold the pen to write another page of my life. It's going to be a brand new world and a brand new me. I feel like I've grown up overnight, or I should say, forced to. Anyway, I'm quite look forward to what is waiting for me. Full of aspiration and ambition, just want to prove myself to the world.

Here I am, this is me, the rest is still unwritten...

寄生虫生活倒计时

今天不知怎么的，把博客换成了黑色，黑色从来都不是我的颜色，不是我的性格，但是可能此刻只有黑色才能表现出我的心情吧。中午跟朋友吃饭的时候，她不经意的提醒我，成绩还有不到一个礼拜就要发布了，我觉得好像一大桶冰水从头上倾盆而下。

下个星期一，如果pass了，就意味着我的寄生虫生活的终结，如果fail，也要看fail几科，我最讨厌这种在黑暗中盘算未来的感觉，而且未来还有多种可能性。每一种可能性都是充满了未知，跟我现在吃了睡睡了吃的寄生虫生活而言，真的是形成了鲜明的对比。

其实自己已经比好多人都幸福了，二字头过了一半了，还在当寄生虫。虽然当初有人说我是蛀虫的时候我很不屑，觉得他要么是羡慕，要么是嫉妒，要么是自己没那个读书的资质，想当寄生虫都当不了。可是如今，我感觉我自己真的是走到一个十字路口。面对未知，我有点彷徨，就像当初自己也清楚知道的，当ACCA这盏明灯熄灭的时候，可能还是有些迷惘的。

我没想到自己会因为这么一件事情而郁闷了一大半天，没什么心情，没什么食欲，当然的，也没什么激情。我自己也知道，这绝对不是一个即将踏入工作岗位的年轻人应有的状态。或许我真的需要强心针吧，现在在极度焦虑的情况下，懒散也是必然。

好好过我剩下5天的寄生虫生活，等到下个星期一，当一切揭晓的时候，不管结果怎么样，我都将会是另一个我！

Random thoughts

Have been really busy enjoying my day-off recently. You won't believe if I tell you that my schedule is pretty packed while not attending any class at all. CEO is performing her job now, trying her best to entertain people and get entertained. It's not an easy job and so far I'm not tired of it yet as I still have the enthusiasm and energy.

However, an over frequently hanging-out life does cause some problems. Sometimes you can only calm down and meditate when you are alone and that's why most great people are lonely. I guess I have overlooked many things in life and it's very likely to make wrong decisions, if there is any.

I remembered I have talked to God about certain issues during my stint of ACCA studies. God was very supportive as he always is, he gave me everything I asked for. Now the end of my student life is just around the corner. Again, God keeps his words, and I believe things will only get more and more smooth. (Oh,fcuk,I deeply feel that my English has deteriorated since I finished my exam!) Suddenly feel a bit regret although I swear I'd never do so. I reckon I've been enjoying too much and wasted my precious time which should be utilised more wisely. The stack of unread SA magazine and the my current snail reading speed is the perfect evidence.

Now I've grown up, or I assume so. Many things we have to face it with sense rather than letting emotions to take control. But at the same time it means we have lost some boldness and thoughtless which should belong exclusively to youngsters, which literally means we are no longer young, unwillinglly, yet we have to admit.

A hell of mess is going on, a even bigger mess is yet to come, get ready and enjoy the thunder in the storm!

做人难，难做人，人难做

最近都在很无忧无虑的享受我所剩不多的最后的学生时代，跟朋友吃吃饭聊聊天，没事出去逛逛，或者在家追追TVB。忙碌多年之后，在即将踏入工作岗位的深渊之前，好不容易有了一点空闲的时间，尽情的享受那种什么都不去想，把一切放空的乐趣。

然而今天跟朋友聊到了一些东西，让我原本四大皆空的脑袋顿时思绪万千。人类从在母体里形成，到最后化成灰烬，那么说长不长，说短不短的几十年里面，我们会经历千万件大小不一的事情。可能当初在母体里的那个胚胎细胞根本无法料想到，自己未来的日子里面有多少酸甜苦辣在等着自己。我曾经不止一次的感慨，家家有本难念的经，一些不太开心的事情听得多了，自己也会替别人心疼。

年轻的时候我们无知且热血，人的天性是善良的，可是当面对这个满是豺狼虎豹的社会的时候，为了自己的生存，很多人摒弃了善良的本性，露出了最原始的为求生存而不惜一切的丑陋嘴脸。当大多数人都变为禽兽的时候，那些还秉持良知的人就成了某种意义上的牺牲品，这也是为什么我们会有“人善被人欺”的说法。

年少轻狂时难免犯错，可能有些东西在当时看来不一定是错，但事过境迁之后，回想起当初，也许我们会选择走一条不一样的路。从很小很小开始，父母就教育我说，天下什么药都有的卖，就是没有后悔药。所以在我们做每一个决定之前，都必须想好，怎样最大程度上避免日后会后悔。当然，这个是说起来容易做起来难。我们是有感情的动物，不可能说事事都绝对理智的去对待，以确保事情万无一失。（即便是绝对理智，也不能确保万无一失）

自己有过不少栽跟头的例子，也听了其他很多让人想撞墙壁的故事，现在才来反省，究竟要怎么样在接下来的几十年里面，尽量少走弯路少碰壁。究竟我们应该以什么样的态度来面对生活？人是感情脆弱的动物，我们每一个人都是父母的宝贝，只要有人受到伤害，必定有两颗心为他而碎。所以，看在人这么难做的份上，为了不让父母操心，更重要的，也是为了自己，我们要更加爱自己。

一失足成千古恨...

青涩年代，再见！

转眼间自己已经到了一个比豆蔻年华成熟许多，但是却又未到熟女的夹心饼干时期。或许是时候该盘点一下记忆，把自己的青涩年代打包装进回忆的储藏室了。

同一屋檐下的小朋友很嫩，年方十九，可以说叫鲜翠欲滴。今天她打算要做一件很可爱的事情：把家里的钥匙交给一个从未见过面的打算搬进来的新房客，而且押金分文没收，只是在网上跟那女生聊了几天，就觉得房客非她莫属。幸亏被我及时发现，阻止了一场悲剧的发生。她刚来到这边不久，对于这一切的惯例都还很不熟悉，所以我丝毫没有怪她的样子。孩子生性纯良，有时候单纯到了让人有点为她担心。但是当她跟老妈老爸吵架的时候，母老虎就现身了。我才多吃了几年饭而已，都止不住无奈的摇头。

看到她让我不禁回想起当初的自己，那些人那些事从眼前飘过，仿如隔世的感觉。当初我也是很纯很蠢，什么都不会什么都不懂什么都没有，一个人只身来到几千公里之外的国度，幸好身边有静宜他们一群人，我从来不曾忘记那个见谁都叫哥哥叫姐姐的时期。岁月是怎样一道一道在我身体上刻下痕迹，只有我自己清楚。

这么些年的摸爬滚打中，青涩也渐渐退去，慢慢的，我成了人家的姐姐，从一个圈子中最小的一个，变成了最老的一个，落差的确有点大。可是这些年自己也是真的在不断成长，不断进步。妈妈嘴上不说，可是她心里明白，她女儿长大了。虽然有时候还是扯住童真的尾巴不肯放手，但玩笑归玩笑，真正要做事的时候，女儿是个大人了。

曾经我思考过很多次，究竟一个人应该青涩多久？是不是在社会的染缸里混过之后，就会被渐渐染上成熟的黄色。或者说，虽然外表被染黄了，可是内心还是碧绿的，这种碧绿能够持续多久，应该持续多久？夹在这中间的“青黄不接”也不是个办法，是不是从我踏出校园的那一天开始，就应该对青涩年代说拜拜了呢？抑或是，其实它早已经离我而去了，只是我没有跟它道过别...

那么就今天吧，郑重的而又不舍的对青涩年代说声：再见！

Voice of the innocent victims-723 bullet train accident

China, please stop your flying pace, wait for your people, wait for your soul, wait for your morality, wait for your conscience! Don't let the train run out off track, don't let the bridges collapse, don't let the roads become traps, don't let houses become ruins. Walk slowly, allowing every life to have freedom and dignity. No one should be left behind by our era.

A Long Due Post

The past 1 month slip between my fingers with nobody's notice. Plenty of things happened: I had my 2nd backpack trip alone to Bangkok; I went back home for 3 weeks; I had an operation for the first time in life; I'm back in KL again overnight and transformed to a "Malaysian style me" compared to the "Chinese style".

Wanted to scribble something long ago, however due to various reasons, time, energy, the prohibition of accessing blogspot in China, all kinds of excuses. Waited until all the eagerly pouring feelings are gone, yet memories still enshrines.For a complicated mixture of sensitive and sensible creature like me, although sensitivity has taken up a major part, the remaining pathetic sense still can guide me to make sensible decisions.

It's a bit hard to recall every details in those days, but I do know is that I've experienced,learned many tiny things which may not raise your attention. My 2nd sweet escape feels as good as first one, but I've learnt something fresh, that is, there really can be 2 drifters off to see the world together. I've met a living example: a sweet couple from Taiwan who have been together for 23 years and now they still seem like they are enjoying honeymoon.Maybe I'm asking too much again. God allows us to pray,but not for something that is too over. I don't know whether my prayer is too extreme, no matter what I still consider it as moderate.

Finally,I've visited Malaysia, Singapore and Thailand which is the typical first overseas tour that a Chinese would select.I had the urge to write a comparison between the 3 capital cities in SEA. Unwillingly but no choice, from many aspects, KL ranks the bottom.If anybody is unconvinced, a detailed analysis can be performed upon requirement.

Suddenly wonder how important is the social network to us? I didn't log on to my facebook for 3 weeks and I was like a person in dessert craving for a drop of rainfall. How much on earth does it affect our life? Maybe we are just enjoying other people's attention and uploading snapshots everywhere on our mobile phones. I've never calculated how much time I spent on it, don't dare to do so as well. I had to admit, modern science is really addictive. Ask those who just bought an ipad 2 then you will know what I'm talking about.

Well just realised insofar I'm just mumbling the words that only I can understand. It's all right, my birthday is just around the corner. I'm sure I'll have mood to do a proper post after that.

浮躁

离大考还有不到一个星期，我被迫憋在家里长蘑菇，虽然人是在家，但是心却不知道飞去哪儿了。每天爬起来坐在书桌前，东摸摸西搞搞，时间转眼就过去了，看了不少东西，但不知道能记得多少。貌似都是翻书全然，关书茫然，一切都取决于我考场上的bullsh*t能力吧。都这个时候了，我也就抱着多记一点算一点的心态，看等到考试的时候，这些一点一点积累起来有没有到50分吧。如果最后一战没有成功，那么只能证明一点：我这三年是失败的，虽然一仗一仗的打得都很成功，但是归根结底，学的东西不扎实，通过不了质量检验，坚决不准出厂！

书还没读出来，毛病一大堆，腰酸背痛腿抽筋好像样样俱全，都是拜读书所赐。是谁曾经说的“万般皆下品，唯有读书高”来着？我真想知道如果命都没了，读书能高到哪儿去。又遇到了跟七年前类似的故事，有人太看得起我，非要把我这条泥鳅扯成鳝鱼那么长。她真的是没动脑子哦？还是被糊涂油蒙了心？典型的self interest严重超标！

拿到我的新电脑快两个星期了，它真是让人喜忧参半。喜的是我从自行车一下子升级到了小轿车，忧的是它太高级了，以至于整天有事没事的都欺负我。而且欺负完了之后还不是那么容易就可以搞得定它，这真让我真的发毒誓，如果以后我有孩子的话，我一定要让他/她学IT，看你再敢欺负我？哼！咱不求人！

考试完了有一个很繁忙很充实的行程在等着我，加油吧！上帝保佑！

May 2011

2 weeks "no laptop time" has passed without my notice. I guess thanks to my not-so-smart yet definately not stupid SE phone.

Well its the first day of May,people are celebrating their holidays worldwide. Its a long weekend as well but thats not the point I want to bring in.What does May mean to an ACCA student? Its our intensive revision time and exam is just around the corner. But this round it is very special for me,May 2011,it will be my last month of fulltime student sweet time in my entire life! Wow,that sounds a bit serious,coz as usual,what we cherish the most is actually what we can't have. I told myself million times that I gotta really catch this last chance to enjoy.

However,there is something else that I need to consider,it's my last 2 papers this round,will I die or survive?Among all the candidates I know,only 2 managed to clear all papers without a single failure. That's a very scary percentage. I am scratching my head trying to figure out how possible it is for me to become the 3rd one. The opportunity cost of such failure that I have to bear is simply just too high: 6 months salary plus tuition fee and exam fee. Out of curiosity,i divided it by 30 to see how much each day costs. And the result is really stunning...

Pity me as a foreigner in Malaysia,i have no choice because the local big4 firms cant recruit me due to government policy. I have to find my own way out,no choice. Cruel but thats the way it is...FIGHTO!

May 2011,month of GOLD...

I miss my laptop!

Its been 24 hrs since my 7 years old laptop went into "coma". I feel like millions ants are biting my ass,I could hardly sit properly. My table seems too empty without the 14' inch thing. Everything is just so inconveniet. Now I am forced to use my "not a smart" phone to grumble. Finally there is once that I feel like a touch screen freaky phone is useful in the absence of a laptop. A tiny little keypad plus a crappy wifi connection really makes me wanna throw it out of my window.(but then I wont be able to grumble anymore)
Can we survive without a laptop? I dont know. I just automatically wanna turn it on after I reach home and drown myself in the endless radiation. Still, a stupid phone cannot fully replace a laptop. I have never tried tablet before,dont dare to comment much. Just pray hard that my laptop in the ICU still can be cured. God bless...

当未来变成现在

时钟在日月不停的滴嗒着，我们每天都在看时间，但是很少会想，每一分钟每一小时的过去意味着什么。朋友说：转眼之间，我们曾经所谓的未来都变成了眼前的每一个现在，是不是我们老了？关于“老”这个字眼，我很少提及，因为我从来不觉得自己“老”。虽然自从开始读ACCA之后每天是混在一群比自己小的孩子当中，但我把自己的心态调整得跟他们一样，所以我觉得我forever 21，从来没有去想，2字头已经去了一半了，是不是该考虑找个人嫁了？（哇，好可怕(⊙o⊙)，不能有这样的念头！）

周末上了一次云顶，在快两年没去过山顶之后，再次去吹风。晚上一群人在ktv包厢里发疯，该唱的唱该跳的跳该喝的喝该倒的倒。老样子，我还是滴酒不沾，唯一不同的是，以前疯到早上都没事的我，现在到半夜好像就有些力不从心了。半夜3点多睡觉，第二天10点多起床，整个脑袋都要爆了的感觉，眼睛需要火柴棍来撑开，要不是山顶的冷风，我看我走路都是头朝地的。第二天晚上9点就像尸体一般爬上床了，直到第二天9点才睁眼，可是让人费解的是12个小时的睡眠过后，我还是像尸体一样。用一瓶可乐让自己强打起精神，眼睛是睁开了，不过心里的谜题没解开。难道真的是身体在给我讯号提醒我现在的我已经不是当初的我了？

看着周围比我小四五岁的人，我觉得自己跟他们的区别不光是在那个数字上，很多思想观念，很多生活经历，对事物的看法都不一样。真的是三年一代啊，代沟很明显！可是他们的优势是时间，撞了墙壁可以回头，一句话，还经得起折腾！我觉得我的一把老骨头可能折腾不起了，虽然在YC跟SG的眼里我还是很嫩， 继续我的slogan，forever 21! Blek~

We are nothing at all

Nowadays the No.1 headline of every single news press is the catastrophe in Japan. It happened just 1 week ago, 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by 10-metre high tsunami and subsequently was the explosion at the nuclear power station. Japan, 1 of the most developed country in the world, has turned into the most destroyed modern civilization that I've ever seen.

The aftermath of the disaster is far more serious than we can imagine. People all over the world are concerned about the possible radiation emission. Even thousand miles apart, at the US, the panicking crowd are buying iodine supplements like mad because they naively thought it can help them prevent radiation contamination. In China, the chaos of fighting for salt is on-going which is really ridiculous. Most supermarkets and hypermarkets have run out of salt, even in 7-11 you also can't find the most common and immaterial daily seasoning. And the most absurd news is a guy died because of excessive dose of salt and became the first victim out of Japan! What a joke!

I have no idea how much lesson human beings has learnt from all these natural disasters. Or they simply think it has nothing to do with them because it's not something that happened to them yet. However, there is only 1 planet, I guess us human beings should be on the same boat when we need to fight for our own tomorrow, although none of us knows whether there is tomorrow and how many tomorrows do we still have. We can't even determine our own future and we are extremely dependent on so many external factors to survive. We claim to be the king of everything but actually we are nothing.

Feeling kind of Sunday blue (well as I don't have Monday blue). After a busy week, finally have some private time to carry out my own silly meditation. Just now saw the video by NameWee on youtube, actually I never really liked him but I admit he is talented and sarcastic enough. But this time, the lyrics and rhythm seems so piercing and every word is a pinch in my heart. And I suddenly feel that I should cherish the present moment more. Everything I have, every people I know, every tiny little pieces in my life, as they are not eternal. Out of suddenly I miss so many people, my beloved and my dear friends. So many of you guys are just, irreplaceable, that's the word pop out of my mind. I love you all!

The 7 billion creatures, please wake up, as we are really nothing at all...

难呀难呀难

今天，第一次用我的预付手机打给人家超过一个小时，一直聊到没钱断线，真是破了我不喜欢打电话的记录。不过电话那头的哭声真的让我很心痛，痛得不忍心挂电话，最后还是hotlink毫不留情的帮我解决了这个难题。

有人问：为什么做人那么难？我心里想的是，不难的话就不叫人了。人有人存在的价值，有价值的话肯定会经历更巨大的考验。就像所谓的：能力越强大，责任就越重。所以我们没必要去埋怨生活里的不顺，换个角度看吧，天将降大任于斯人也，谁知道呢你说是不是？

最近YC跟WY还有米米都出了点状况，都是跟我手心手背的人，我看在眼里都痛在心上。我能做什么呢？除了当一个忠实的听众，时不时挖空心思出点馊主意之外，剩下的我也无能为力吧。可以说是自家的稀饭还没吹冷，没办法帮人家吹汤圆。不过我觉得我没那么容易被打倒，常年以来已经磨砺出了我这颗橡皮轮胎做的心。在悬崖边上也是要笑着安慰自己，不远的地方肯定有个树枝可以给我抱。多么希望我这样子无厘头无根据的乐天主义能影响到身边的每一个人啊，但是那种坚定的信念并不是每个人都能有的吧，哎...

很多人羡慕我，从他们看我的眼神就可以知道。他们觉得我无忧无虑，每天很开心很闲，想吃就吃，想玩就玩，ACCA读到今天也一切顺利。可是实际情况并非如此啊。老实说，如果可以的话，我倒想跟很多人换换，我给你们我所拥有的一切，换你们的一切，你们未必愿意就是了。接受你所不能改变的吧，人与人根本就是不同的，但是我们有一个相同点，那就是不可能有100%完美的生活，总有些事情是会让我们头痛的。难事摆在眼前，我们用怎样的心态来看待它就会make一个很大的difference。大家一起加油吧！

扑克脸

有朋友在面子书上感叹，为什么这个世上有那么多的扑克脸？我想可能是因为大家都害怕吧，对人类的不信任和对大环境的恐惧感，内心的不安和惶惑只有靠一张扑克来遮掩。白天规规矩矩的做事做人，晚上如果有机会，可能会在网络上偶尔显露一下自己的真实面目。前一秒钟的带着面具的道貌岸然，可能在转眼之间崩溃，取而代之的是一个赤裸裸的灵魂。原始和本性显露无疑，那么直白那么朴实，不管是好是坏，都是最纯最真的自我。

扑克有54张牌，但是人却不止有54张脸。识时务者为俊杰，见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话，几乎已经成为最基本的生存守则。每个人都生怕别人知道自己葫芦里卖的是什么药，似乎只有保持神秘感，才能保持别人对你的兴趣。或者是说，社会要求人类在不同的时候扮演不同的角色，在父母面前是好儿女，在配偶面前是好老公好老婆，在孩子面前是好父母，在情人面前是罗密欧/朱丽叶，在上司面前是奴才，在下属面前是皇帝。可能父母永远没有机会看到你当奴才的时候，老板也永远不知道你比莎翁还浪漫。

这一切似乎已经成了理所当然，每个人都在默默遵守着这个规矩，从来没有人会质疑。所以最终的结局是，不管你愿意与否，别人对你的了解都只是N分之一而已，人家只能以人家看得到的你那一面来评价100%的你。所以根本不要妄想一个人会完全了解你，就算是你的灵魂伴侣也好，相信都不是百分之百。换句话说，可能真正100%的你摆在你自己面前的时候，你自己都会恶心得无法接受，应该觉得无地自容才是，所以最好还是用你的扑克脸把那些肮脏丑陋的部分藏起来吧。

Can't read my can't read my, no he can't read my poker face, she's got to love nobody...

Waiting is torturing

This is not my first time to waffle on my blog on the exam result day, the only difference is this year I haven't got my result yet until now. I've been waiting for the stup*d email for 3 hours and it never comes. The lame ACCA website is down due to overload. My phone keeps on ringing, everybody is asking me how it is yet I couldn't give them an answer! Hearing about friends' success and failure while waiting for my own destiny in the dark is seriously not fun.

My initial plan is, after getting result at 1pm, either happy or sad for 1 hour, then go to MCO to book my revision class seat and probably have a feast for dinner, either to reward myself or to release tension. However, since a few days back, my luck was not with me: I was locked in the sitting room and it costs me quite a fortune, my house internet broke down just one night before my result is released. I don't know what do all these augur. Just pray hard for the best!

I'm looking forward to my reward which is a backpacking trip to either Bangkok/Ho Chi Minh City/Phuket and today is the last day of the promotion. If I can't get the result by today then the whole thing is gone. God bless, I know you love me!

欲哭无泪的元宵节

今天是正月十五，元宵节，又是跟家人团聚的日子，我又再次没得团聚，没得团聚是小，但是今天发生了一件超级倒霉的事，我担心了无数次的状况终于出现了---我把钥匙锁在了房间里！

家里空空如也就我一个人，穿着熨得笔直的衬衫和西装裙，拿着我的OL包，傻傻的望着墙壁，不知道该怎么办。室友全部都在很远的地方，不可能及时赶回来救我；学校今天是第一堂课，几十个学生已经坐在教室里了，老师是唯一一个不能翘课的。老王叫了一个开锁匠飞车来我家救我，20分钟之后，人是来了，带着工具，第一句话就是：开一个锁90块。我听到差点没晕过去，但是我大脑已经丧失了思考的功能，没办法，只能默许。他三下五除二就搞定了我家的大门两个锁和我房间的锁，会算术的人都知道3*90=270。是的，就这么杯具的，270块长翅膀飞走了。

不幸中的万幸是，开锁匠开车送了我一程去学校，顺便去取钱给他，270块，你真的是要我的命，多少节课的辛苦就这么去了，瞬间化为乌有。这个时候才真正知道什么是“挣钱犹如针挑土，花钱犹如水推沙”。到了学校，我迟到20分钟，在跟学生们解释了理由之后，大家都对我深表同情，也是真的只要稍微跟我“通感”一下都会知道我有多郁闷，虽然我是一直在苦笑着诉说这一切，但苦笑是因为哭不出来。。。

打电话给老妖精诉苦，好像很久没跟她诉苦过了，不知道是因为没什么苦还是我已经习惯了。突然之间觉得有点累，面临21号巨大的压力，一个人默默承受，不管是怎样的结果，这一切都得要继续。真的希望6月能给这种生活画上一个句号，好像走了太久，有些厌倦了，不是厌倦沿途的风景，而是厌倦没有尽头没有终点的迷茫。一个人的生活可以过得糊里糊涂，有时忙碌有时懒散，有时随心所欲。但是老妖精今天说，我表哥最近很忙，晚上1,2点才回家，他老妈竟然还为他守门，熬鸡汤给他补身体。我说我在这里半夜3点不睡觉也没见鸡汤在哪里，习惯了这种凡事都“自己保重”的生活，不知道这叫所谓的独立还是叫可怜的孩子没人管，算了不想去想这些。

羡慕那些有家人在身边的孩子，但是又不愿舍弃这自由飘荡的生活，我自作孽，活该！

神马都是浮云

沉睡了千年的梦

沧海桑田没人懂

斑驳的琴弦是为谁拂动

尘封的往事被谁触碰

Rap：

遥想当年征战沙场

金戈铁马箭在弦上

英雄气概无人能挡

马啼嘶咧尘土飞扬男儿壮志守边疆

伊人在远方盼望郎君何时还乡

不经意穿越时空

久违那饭香茶浓

滴泪的烛火眷恋着西风

满腹的怅惘不眠三更

Rap：

遥想当年征战沙场

金戈铁马箭在弦上

英雄气概无人能挡

马啼嘶咧尘土飞扬男儿壮志守边疆

伊人在远方盼望郎君何时还乡

一切都已成过往

不朽也会被遗忘

权势不过梦一场

收拾行囊速返乡与伊人共享佳酿

所谓的功名利禄都只是乌托邦

This holyshit for SG958 killed millions of my brain cells and it was "The holy mother of Christ" according to somebody.

Rabbit year, good year!

Didn't notice that more than a month has passed since my last post. Lazy as I've always been, blogging seems to be the last on my "to-do list" especially during festival season.

Finally the year of tiger has gone, phew, it was not a very good year for me, but thank God that I still managed to get through all my papers. Rabbit year should be more merciful and tender compared to the vigorous tiger which myself represents. At least I had a good beginning---4 days sweet escape+5 star backpacking experience in Malacca. Thanks to MCB, who was my tour guide+driver+body guard for 4 days, I really appreciate that and it was wonderful to meet your family, they are amiable and lovely and they made my CNY not lonely.

11 days holiday seem to finish too soon, unwillingly, I'm back to school again. I struggled like hell this morning to get up early, knowing that there would be a kit kat waiting for me in class. Here you go, there really is. But another 10 fellows in the class are also having it which I don't really like. However, I've decided that my new hobby is to collect Kit Kat, see how many I can get after this semester. I guess I love Kit Kat! =)