Monday, September 26, 2011

Reunion with a long lost friend

Last night I burnt pretty much mid-night oil while I wasn't really feeling so well. It's all because of the "reunion" with a long lost friend who is thousands miles apart. It has been at least a year since I last talked to him which was before he stepped onto the land which is the farthest continent from Asia Pacific.

We both thought that time flies faster than thunder. Everything felt like yesterday,I was still the little girl pondering at no where. It was him who showed me this bright path, I could not forget, I dare not to forget. I secretly took the oath to myself, I'd be the one, I can do it! 3 years later, yes, thank God that He really made me the one! Big C was more than satisfied with what I've achieved. Although through the years I rarely had his guidance, I have never let myself and the whole world down.

But today, after I've been through all the tangles, I'm standing at a cross-road, alone. Too many choices and there is only one me. The choice I make today will result in hundreds of different me in 10 years time. At this time, Big C's appearance was like giving me parachute before the airplane crashes. Again I have to thank God, it's really different to have a mentor that truly stands in my shoes and think for me. Big C showed me a direction again, and the next few years is left to me, see how I can accomplish the mission again.

Guidance was only given once in a few years time, but I will benefit for life.Thank you for being my mentor, wish you can also achieve what you long for. My heartiest prayers for you, my dear Big C all the best!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

他和她的故事 Part 2

当他得知她再次堕入红尘之后,心如刀割,那种锥心的痛不光是因为心疼她,同时也因为恨自己不争气。她太傻了,完全没有为自己的将来打算过,趁着年轻就狠命剥削自己余下的青春。痛到深处无法忍受了,他再也压抑不住了,做了一个重要的决定:他要守护她。他想要在她完成使命之后得到她完整的人和完整的心。他在费尽了千方百计,使出浑身解数之后,终于得到了她的答允,他们俩决定要抛开所有世俗,义无反顾的继续这段恋情。

正式交往第一天,他去车站接她,当她走出站口的刹那,远远的她看到那个自己朝思暮想的身影,有些手足无措的站在阳光底下,手里捧着一束白玫瑰,他心中的万分忐忑全部写在了脸上。女孩心中甜甜的,他居然还记得自己讨厌红玫瑰,这是她生平第一次收到白玫瑰,外面那些充满铜臭的男人哪里会欣赏白玫瑰的高贵雅致?接下来的几天里,每一秒钟都是甜蜜。晚上去爬山,到海边狂奔,留下了两人光着脚丫的相片,去唱k,去拍大头贴,所有无聊的小事都因为有了彼此而变得精彩非凡。他们乐此不疲的沉浸在这难得的二人世界中,忘记了一切。可当夜深人静的时候,她望着他躺在自己大腿上的那张俊俏的脸,不禁害怕了起来。这样的快乐还能持续多久?This is not life, this is stolen time.

她万万没有想到的是,自己最好的朋友早就洞悉了他跟自己之间的联络,而且非常不满自己偷偷跑来找他,当她还在考虑到底要不要跟好姐妹坦白的时候,好姐妹已经发飙了,只给她丢下了一句:他跟我,只能选一个。到底是多年来深厚的友情重要,还是这不知道有没有未来的爱情重要?她夹在中间左右为难,爱上他是情非得已,可是她又不愿意割舍跟好姐妹的这段情意。她有些后悔,后悔自己当初鲁莽的越界,可是情到深处身不由己,有些事也不是她能控制的。在经过一番深思熟虑之后,她决定离开他,她找了个万能的借口来搪塞他,说她妈妈不同意他们在一起,殊不知在她掉头离开的时候,泪却忍不住一步一步的在滴落。为什么你走进了我的世界,只给了我短暂得像烟火般的美好?烟火的绚烂过后,留下的是无限的失落和惆怅。他清楚的意识到,比起他来,好姐妹对于她而言更重要。他感觉自己顿时间从天堂坠入了地狱,你那该死的温柔要让我怎么戒?于是他用香烟和酒精来麻醉自己,把自己关在房间,对着空洞的四面墙壁,一个人吃一个人睡,他每天听着伤感的旋律,回想过去的种种:第一次跟女孩用同一个勺子吃冰淇林,第一次被伤害,一切她的好,她的坏。空虚和寂寞刺穿他的身躯,一口一口的咬着他那颗受伤的心。而她,变得害怕付出,同时变本加厉的爱上了被爱的感觉。

Monday, September 19, 2011

他和她的故事 Part 1

这篇博文是我一个朋友拜托我写的小说,我已经拖了很久很久了,不好意思再继续拖下去,一定要在我开始工作之前把这个任务完成才可以,不然开始地狱生活之后我是没时间也没心情做这么闲情逸致的事了。

故事发生在那个沿海的小城市,小小的她天真快乐,家境虽不算富裕,却也殷实,过着衣食无忧的生活,旁人煞是羡慕。不料十八岁那年,家道中落,她作为家里的老大,必须要用稚嫩的双肩来扛起家庭沉重的负担。为生活所迫,有一副漂亮脸蛋的她堕入了红尘,混迹于市里各大酒吧迪厅,凭着美貌和比一般红尘女子聪明的脑袋,她从一个普通的公关小姐,变成了红遍一时的交际花。灯红酒绿的花花世界中,她看到弟弟妹妹充满期待渴望读书的双眼,看到父母那被债务压得直不起来的腰背。有钱能使鬼推磨,她不知道钱是不是万能的,可她知道没有钱是万万不能的,于是便更加坚定了她在这条不归路上继续走下去的信念。

他是俊俏得让人心疼的孩子,高挺的鼻梁透着男人的英气,浑身透着让人无法自拔的神秘气息。他们很早就认识了,相识没多久,她就突然间消失了。在杳无音讯了三年之后,偶然一天他在网上看到一篇博文,他下意识就觉得那肯定是她写的,于是联络了作者。天下就有这么巧合的事,果不其然是出自她手。他们几乎是异口同声,八百年没见了,你还好吗?从那以后,几乎每天他们都会同时上线,虽然身隔千万里,电脑把他们之间的距离缩小到了只有不到一米。两个人的心中都有一分牵挂,那种感觉很微妙,友人以上,恋人未满。她自己也不清楚,为什么自己内心会把那个远在家乡的他当做自己的蓝颜知己。回想过去,他的女友是她最好的朋友,她表面上装作没事,可是内心的痛是无人知晓无法呐喊的。为了不背叛自己的好朋友,她强忍着多年来自己的情愫,把这份情埋在了心底最深处。

偶然有一次机会,包养她的老男人出差去到他的城市,她跟随一起去了。分别多年之后,两人终于得以重聚,他们只是像普通朋友一样的吃饭逛街拍照,聊天的话题很随意很轻松。她觉得跟他虽然多年未见,但却好像昨天才见的老友,一切都是那么熟悉而自然,在一起的时候时间过得特别快,短短的几天眨眼就过了。她怀着心中的万般无奈,跟随老男人离开,回到了金丝雀的鸟笼中。可是她已经不能继续做当初那个逆来顺受乖乖的金丝雀,她再也无法忍受心中的纠缠,毕竟,女人的身体和灵魂是分不开的。她决定离开老男人,可是迫于生存的压力,她只有继续回到那个物质流飞的场所,用纸醉金迷来麻痹自己脆弱的灵魂。

未完待续

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Audit express workshop失意,k歌房得意!

在久违了课堂将近4个月之后,今天起了个大早,重返母校,参加为期一天的audit express workshop。原本是兴致勃勃,满心欢喜,可是才开始了几分钟,我就已经觉得超级不爽了。

为什么呢?原因好多个,其一,老师的投影仪与电脑的接口有问题,一直黑屏,屏幕闪一闪的我就差没唱《小星星》。 其二,老师之一是个马来婆,该马来婆的口音特别特别难听,英文烂不说,用词又不准确,还一直结巴,而且还经常犯无心的口误,再加上讲课无条理,东一下西一下,搞得我晕头转向。我从来没有像今天这样这么讨厌一个人的英文,今天不知道是我自己心情的问题还是因为太久没上课不适应了,反正要有多不爽就有多不爽。其三,这该死的软件里面要用到很多double entry的知识,了解我的人都知道,本小姐虽然是ACCA affiliate,可是double entry说有多烂就有多烂。高级的consolidation我都会做,可是会偏偏栽在最基础的double entry上,这一切都归咎于我不是会计出身的,而且我的会计学老师是用一套自己的方法,完全没有涉及到double entry,于是今天我就当了一次睁眼瞎。而且那该死的马来婆居然还叫我来回答问题,我真是&%##¥%…*&!!!

几个月没有好好集中精神学东西,感觉脑袋锈掉了,很多知识都是似曾相识,颇有它认识我我不认识它的感觉。我突然有点害怕,我真的是designed for high level job的吗?最基本的account clerk做的东西我都不会!郁闷了一整天,心想下个星期六要怎么去考试,想到都烦,又有了当初读ACCA的时候的郁闷感。心情本来都不好了,回到家跟苏打绿诉苦,说我好想要他电脑知识的十分之一。结果该死的家伙把我好一个数落,说我这样是因为专业知识不过关,跟电脑水平差完全没关系,还说我这样的学习态度有问题,说得够透彻够露骨,我简直就是在数九寒冬里被一桶冷水从头淋到脚了!我想赌气,不吃晚饭,可是我的胃又直说no,这个emo得不是一般哪!哪里还有心情准备要过中秋佳节呢?

于是,我决定了,要在本星期之内第二次去唱k!(第三次将会是后天晚上,汗。。。)感谢牵牛花先生的友情演出,不过今晚我将负责打酱油和做俯卧撑,顺便偶尔伴唱一下,打算好好享受牵牛花先生的演唱会!失意了,总是需要换一个舞台来得意一下的嘛,恩!!!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Someone like you

Accidentally heard Adele's on a friend's facebook link. My heart was captured by her affectionate voice and the way she interpreted the song. Her voice was kind of addictive by itself and with the power of the lyrics, the whole thing can be regarded as a "tear bomb". I have not done the stupid thing of looping on a single song nonstop for a very long time. Nowadays mostly the songs are just meteor and you can hardly remember them after weeks. It's quite difficult to find a modern vintage as majority of the billboard hits are club songs with very least of connotation.

I read the news how this song came about,as expected, Adele had her own heart-breaking stories. I reckon it's impossible to write about other people's story with such deep emotions. Unless the leading actor is you yourself. Every piece of memories is a pinch on the softest part of your heart,only you know how bitter it tastes yet you still don't have slightest of regret. Only in this way, overwhelmed in the endless sorrow, a master piece engendered.

There are not so many contraltos out there, let alone those who is so infectious and can express their emotions so thoroughly. Keep up the good work Adele and wish you find your "someone" soon...