"I'm dreaming of a white Christmas..."
After a few years' "summer Christmas" in Malaysia, I had my 1st Cold Christmas back home. It's not snowing and it never will on Christmas day in Chongqing, but the weather is dull and drizzling all day long. I haven't seen sunshine for quite a few days, really miss the heat in KL.
Almost everybody would think that i had a crazy hang-out last night. However, I stayed at home and watched a movie instead. According to today's newspaper, there were 100 thousand people gathered in a "Caucasian Street" last night for the countdown, the buildings in the street are all very exotic and majestic. It's a place of interest here and you could really see the different side of a modern Chinese city. But 100 thousand is really a stunning figure, i cannot imagine how many tonnes of rubbish they could produce after their crazy party!
The merchandise prices in China are hiking incredibly without any sign of stabilising or reducing. More imported stuff are available with breath-taking prices. Pappa Roti here cost you RMB5, teh tarik is RMB7, roti canai ranks from RMB10-20, Munchy's biscuit is labelled at RMB19 which is only RM3.9 in KL. I was quite shocked as I'm claiming i don't need to buy anything and at the same time i spent about RM200 daily.
Anyway, it's good to be home. I don't need to worry about what to eat everyday. Mum would try her best to satisfy me with her OMG cooking skill, if no choice, there are lots of restaurants serving different cuisines out there. Having 5 meals per day, definately it contradicts with my original"losing weight plan". But i really feel pityful if i just eat 3 times a day as there are too much yum-yum food and my time is limited. Eat until I die!
I'm using a proxy server to update my blog coz China banned blogspot for the reasons i cannot figure out. Really inconvenient and i can't log on to facebook also! WTF...Malaysia,i'm coming back very soon...
Friday, December 25, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Stressed out!
Count down to my "favourite" exam: 2 days to go
Count down to my 倦鸟归巢：4 days to go
However, all i think of is the fcuking exam and not even 0.1% of the pleasure i would have after i go home. It really makes me sick. I couldn't sleep well for more than a week. Insomnia never appears in my dictionary, but not this time.
Flipping the past year questions, auditing the answers, even don't bother to work them out by myself, looking at the black "ants" already makes me wanna puke. Why can't i just become a normal student? No need to be super hard-working, just a reasonable diligent student will do, so i won't be thinking of hanging out mucking around everyday.
Suddenly miss somebody, the love, support and even the lessons i learnt in a hard way. Maybe in the absence of your guidance i can never be a "good girl". I don't know how am i supposed to sail without a lighthouse.
Aiks...God bless everybody!
Count down to my 倦鸟归巢：4 days to go
However, all i think of is the fcuking exam and not even 0.1% of the pleasure i would have after i go home. It really makes me sick. I couldn't sleep well for more than a week. Insomnia never appears in my dictionary, but not this time.
Flipping the past year questions, auditing the answers, even don't bother to work them out by myself, looking at the black "ants" already makes me wanna puke. Why can't i just become a normal student? No need to be super hard-working, just a reasonable diligent student will do, so i won't be thinking of hanging out mucking around everyday.
Suddenly miss somebody, the love, support and even the lessons i learnt in a hard way. Maybe in the absence of your guidance i can never be a "good girl". I don't know how am i supposed to sail without a lighthouse.
Aiks...God bless everybody!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
鸟人一群群
一样米养百样人，林子大了，真是什么鸟都有，不厌其烦的一次又一次往自己脸上缠绷带，难道这样就能遮住你的丑陋嘴脸了吗？简直是欲盖弥彰嘛！要做，就不要怕人家知道，要想人不知，除非己莫为，不然的话，总有见光的那一天的，到头来又要自己打自己的嘴，看你怎么死！
这年头，任何意义上的“自由”都很难，似乎人类习惯于被禁锢，喜欢被约束，不然好像就找不到依靠一样。好像有人特别喜欢观察注意别人，稍微人家有一点风吹草动，当事人自己都没放在心上的事情，这边毫不干事的群体反而已经引起轩然大波。这叫什么？说得好听点叫皇帝不急太监急，不过原本不该急的事情，你太监急有个P用？说得难听点，这叫闲事管得宽，再说得难听点，这叫三8！不过你8的时候也应该先管管自己吧？照照自己什么德行，再对人评头论足也不迟，不要“马列主义装电筒”，只照别人不照自己。不然是不是非得要人家送你一面大镜子，让你面对一下现实，我是怕你看着镜子里的自己羞愧得无地自容！真正有自知之明的人，每当照镜子的时候，倒是真的会觉得羞愧，比如我们的英文和中文文学界的大师林语堂先生。如果林老都会觉得看着自己头皮发麻的话，不知道平凡如你如我的人应该要把尾巴夹得多紧才是！
鸟人一群群，SB一堆堆。。。可怜的地球，竟然承载了60多亿“人类”这种东西，难怪她也会有罢工的一天，等着瞧吧。。。
这年头，任何意义上的“自由”都很难，似乎人类习惯于被禁锢，喜欢被约束，不然好像就找不到依靠一样。好像有人特别喜欢观察注意别人，稍微人家有一点风吹草动，当事人自己都没放在心上的事情，这边毫不干事的群体反而已经引起轩然大波。这叫什么？说得好听点叫皇帝不急太监急，不过原本不该急的事情，你太监急有个P用？说得难听点，这叫闲事管得宽，再说得难听点，这叫三8！不过你8的时候也应该先管管自己吧？照照自己什么德行，再对人评头论足也不迟，不要“马列主义装电筒”，只照别人不照自己。不然是不是非得要人家送你一面大镜子，让你面对一下现实，我是怕你看着镜子里的自己羞愧得无地自容！真正有自知之明的人，每当照镜子的时候，倒是真的会觉得羞愧，比如我们的英文和中文文学界的大师林语堂先生。如果林老都会觉得看着自己头皮发麻的话，不知道平凡如你如我的人应该要把尾巴夹得多紧才是！
鸟人一群群，SB一堆堆。。。可怜的地球，竟然承载了60多亿“人类”这种东西，难怪她也会有罢工的一天，等着瞧吧。。。
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Youth
Eclipsed as leaves flown away;
Won't have a little moment to stay;
Seldom to be percieved like sunshine in May;
When it's gone only regrets are left...
This is my 1st English poem,hope you enjoy...:-p
Won't have a little moment to stay;
Seldom to be percieved like sunshine in May;
When it's gone only regrets are left...
This is my 1st English poem,hope you enjoy...:-p
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
生活，每一种感情都是千疮百孔
昨天偶然无聊，在家随便乱翻了本书出来瞟，谁知竟然拿到了张爱玲的短篇小说集。已经很久没有进行中文的“乐读”了，乍一看那么多字好像还不太习惯，可一旦开始了，接下来就非常顺利，其速度不知道是我看英文的多少倍，TNND...
翻开第一页，竟然是关于女人的段子，非常不留情面，一针见血的披露很多我们作为女性自己都不愿意正视的弊端，不过倒也是写得非常中肯，我们不得不承认，剖析得很透彻，但是总给人一种脊柱发凉的感觉，或许我们应该说，人类这种动物就会使人脊柱发凉。
太久没有接触中国的文学，中文文字对我的触动有点让我始料不及，惊叹于中文的表达能力，除了字面之外的深层含义更是让人回味无穷。这倒提醒了我，每天在忙着喝洋墨水的同时，也应该时不时的补充一下“母乳”，毕竟“母乳”的营养是奶粉不能比的，我们是永远不断奶的孩子。。。
生活，每一种感情都是千疮百孔。。。
翻开第一页，竟然是关于女人的段子，非常不留情面，一针见血的披露很多我们作为女性自己都不愿意正视的弊端，不过倒也是写得非常中肯，我们不得不承认，剖析得很透彻，但是总给人一种脊柱发凉的感觉，或许我们应该说，人类这种动物就会使人脊柱发凉。
太久没有接触中国的文学，中文文字对我的触动有点让我始料不及，惊叹于中文的表达能力，除了字面之外的深层含义更是让人回味无穷。这倒提醒了我，每天在忙着喝洋墨水的同时，也应该时不时的补充一下“母乳”，毕竟“母乳”的营养是奶粉不能比的，我们是永远不断奶的孩子。。。
生活，每一种感情都是千疮百孔。。。
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tribute to MJ
This is my 2nd (Tribute to MJ), the first one was lost due to my stupid mistake, salute to modern technology which makes techno-idiot like me suffer a lot. Normally I won’t write about the same issue again if the original work was not yet saved before a power broke down, coz I will lose the passion and the desire to repeat everything once again. But this time, don’t know why I have some kind of urge to write something about the deceased King of Pop.
Couldn’t really recall when I first heard of such a person called Michael Jackson. The interesting thing is, his (Thriller)was the very first English album I bought in 1998 which was exactly 20 years after it was released, as a reward of getting good result for exam. At those good old days, my English was really “limited company”, I didn’t even understand the album title, all I knew was the name printed on the cassette cover---Michael Jackson. I played it using my mum’s antique semi-conductor radio/cassette player while looking at the lyrics blindly. Everything I could recognize was “I, you, the” stuff like that, quite pathetic. Albeit I was patient enough to check every word up in my 1st electronic dictionary( I really miss it), it was still impossible to understand the whole thing as a lot of abbreviations were used and they were too advance for me at that time. But I was quite enjoying and trying to sing along.
Nora also seemed intrigued, asked me to play the album for her. I chose (Beat it) and (Billie Jean), played them while dad was preparing dinner. Surprisingly both of them said the rhythm was very familiar although they didn’t understand a word and they were quite fond of our pre-dinner concerto. I had to admit, thanks to Michael, he lit up my thirst for learning English through songs. Whereafter, I came to know more and more about English songs, from golden Oscar oldies to Backstreet Boys, my enthusiasm for music never decrease, even until today. Those lyrics which were like a sealed book for me, now they were all carved in my head, could never be erased.
Hearing the news of his death, I didn’t realize how serious it was at the first place. Not until all the newspapers and TV were talking about the sad news I could react. I was quite down and repeating MJ is dead for days, however, I didn’t really feel the grief as if you’ve lost your family members or your loved one. Subsequently, his last performance (This is it)is in cinema 4 months after he’s gone. Tickets were available 2 weeks before it’s released and it was in great demand as it will only be shown for 2 weeks in Malaysia. Grabbed my ticket in advance, went to the show wearing black in order to show some venerability and respect.
It was a full house, audience aged from infant to grandma. The movie started from interviewing his crew for the concert, people wept and whimpered while expressing how they yearned MJ. The first song iswhich is also the first song in . Again he showed us his exclusive dance and his high pitch vocal. You can hardly believe that he’s already in his 50th and he’s in poor health condition. I’ve never know that he’s so professional and dedicated to his music, very rigid and strict with his work yet still has a pleasant personality. He wouldn’t let go any tiny flaw and he’s always think for the audience. If we tolerate the flaw, what end result would the audience get? He said to his band: “I just can’t hear that sound, I just can’t hear it. You gotta sing it with love, you know L-O-V-E love.” I was touched by his dedication and devotion and his exigent working attitude which is exactly what I lack of. He’s so humble and amiable. During the show, we gave him standing ovation for several times. The 2 hour show was full of laughter and tears, quite a few people were sobbing, especially when it came to the end which was the last song from MJ---. It lead me into deep thoughts, this is it, a spectacular concert turned into a funeral; this is it, his love for music, for his beloved one, for his fans and for this world; this is it, the end of MJ’s legendary life.
No matter what you call him: king of pop, moonwalker, plastic-surgery addict, kid-molesting freak or frantic dad, there is only one Michael Jackson, who has already gone. Quote one of my favourite MJ songs: Gone too soon. We will remember you forever Michael, rest in peace.
From now on, there is moonwalk in heaven…
Couldn’t really recall when I first heard of such a person called Michael Jackson. The interesting thing is, his (Thriller)
Nora also seemed intrigued, asked me to play the album for her. I chose
Hearing the news of his death, I didn’t realize how serious it was at the first place. Not until all the newspapers and TV were talking about the sad news I could react. I was quite down and repeating MJ is dead for days, however, I didn’t really feel the grief as if you’ve lost your family members or your loved one. Subsequently, his last performance (This is it)
It was a full house, audience aged from infant to grandma. The movie started from interviewing his crew for the concert, people wept and whimpered while expressing how they yearned MJ. The first song is
No matter what you call him: king of pop, moonwalker, plastic-surgery addict, kid-molesting freak or frantic dad, there is only one Michael Jackson, who has already gone. Quote one of my favourite MJ songs: Gone too soon. We will remember you forever Michael, rest in peace.
From now on, there is moonwalk in heaven…
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
心结
和TQC冷战已经几个月了,其实算不上冷"战",根本都没有"战",但是这场没有硝烟的战争却压得我喘不过气来.
只是一个小小的误会而已,他竟然蠢到要"在友情和爱情之间做出选择的话,我只有放弃友情".不经意回想起当初的"我们的感情从海洋变成河流,又从河流变成了小溪,但是水却终究是水."我不知道电脑上一个delete键可不可以改变H2O的性质,但是我知道,要修补一颗破碎的心不是那么容易.生命中的过客很多,但是我没想到他是其中之一.男人一旦绝起来,比女人是有过之无不及,一切都做得那么干净利落,毫不犹豫,不知道会不会留下丝毫的痕迹,可能以后还是有个影子在心里飘来飘去.
心碎,了无痕.我只想说,不管你最后是不是跟她"执子之手,与子偕老",若干年后,当你回想起自己当初的所作所为,你不会后悔...
只是一个小小的误会而已,他竟然蠢到要"在友情和爱情之间做出选择的话,我只有放弃友情".不经意回想起当初的"我们的感情从海洋变成河流,又从河流变成了小溪,但是水却终究是水."我不知道电脑上一个delete键可不可以改变H2O的性质,但是我知道,要修补一颗破碎的心不是那么容易.生命中的过客很多,但是我没想到他是其中之一.男人一旦绝起来,比女人是有过之无不及,一切都做得那么干净利落,毫不犹豫,不知道会不会留下丝毫的痕迹,可能以后还是有个影子在心里飘来飘去.
心碎,了无痕.我只想说,不管你最后是不是跟她"执子之手,与子偕老",若干年后,当你回想起自己当初的所作所为,你不会后悔...
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
无眠
今阿日月娘那这月光
照着阮归瞑拢未冻困
连头毛都没休困
你甘知阮对你的思念
希望你有同款的梦
咱两人坐阵返来那一天
互相依偎的情爱
伫你的心肝内
是毋是还有我的存在
永远拢咧等
有时阵嘛会毋甘愿
想讲要做伙飞
去一个心中美丽的所在
所有的一切
拢总给你囥做伙
希望你会当了解
照着阮归瞑拢未冻困
连头毛都没休困
你甘知阮对你的思念
希望你有同款的梦
咱两人坐阵返来那一天
互相依偎的情爱
伫你的心肝内
是毋是还有我的存在
永远拢咧等
有时阵嘛会毋甘愿
想讲要做伙飞
去一个心中美丽的所在
所有的一切
拢总给你囥做伙
希望你会当了解
Monday, August 17, 2009
Midnight,unwind your thoughts
It's been donkeys of years since my last post. I've been very busy,but it's not an excuse for not updating my blog. The main problem is: i still don't have the f*cking internet in my house!!! I feel like going insane, at the same time, getting used to this kind of insane.
A laptop without internet only equals to a music player---an out-dated music player,coz got no chance to download new pieces. Staying away from laptop actually did me good. It gave me more time to do other rubbish stuff of mine. I'm always able to find tons of reasons to relax and have fun. New term has started for one and half months, my channel still stays in "holiday". June results will be out in 17 hours time. I believe most of my fellas are praying and many of them cannot fall asleep tonight. I'm quite all right i guess although i had a strange dream last night, i didn't get the result email and i couldn't log on to ACCA website to check result while others all got their results already,wtf! Nora told me it's because i think too much. I don't know, no matter what is the result, you have to face it.
I sprained my shoulder and neck a few days ago. It was rather serious i could say. I couldn't move my head naturally for a whole day and it hurts like hell when i applied the Mantholatum heating rub. That night was longer than a thousand years. I was craving for somebody's call unfortunately my phone kept quiet for a whole night. I felt very pathetic for myself. No one, there was just simply no one, who truly cares. I'm afraid of featuring this kind of thing happen in my later years,what if I'm too old to give myself a massage? It sounds very heart-breaking and i don't want to think about it now. I keep on cheating myself, it's ok,i can handle everything. However actually it's not really so "ok", there will be one day, i may even have no teeth left! If i'm alone then... Scary...
A laptop without internet only equals to a music player---an out-dated music player,coz got no chance to download new pieces. Staying away from laptop actually did me good. It gave me more time to do other rubbish stuff of mine. I'm always able to find tons of reasons to relax and have fun. New term has started for one and half months, my channel still stays in "holiday". June results will be out in 17 hours time. I believe most of my fellas are praying and many of them cannot fall asleep tonight. I'm quite all right i guess although i had a strange dream last night, i didn't get the result email and i couldn't log on to ACCA website to check result while others all got their results already,wtf! Nora told me it's because i think too much. I don't know, no matter what is the result, you have to face it.
I sprained my shoulder and neck a few days ago. It was rather serious i could say. I couldn't move my head naturally for a whole day and it hurts like hell when i applied the Mantholatum heating rub. That night was longer than a thousand years. I was craving for somebody's call unfortunately my phone kept quiet for a whole night. I felt very pathetic for myself. No one, there was just simply no one, who truly cares. I'm afraid of featuring this kind of thing happen in my later years,what if I'm too old to give myself a massage? It sounds very heart-breaking and i don't want to think about it now. I keep on cheating myself, it's ok,i can handle everything. However actually it's not really so "ok", there will be one day, i may even have no teeth left! If i'm alone then... Scary...
Monday, July 27, 2009
I'm still alive!
Dear all,I'm still alive! There is no internet in my house and that's why i've been missing for so long. Miss you all...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Transformers2
大家都在翘首期待的<变形金刚2>终于出炉了!有幸在23号看了首映,非常震撼.壮观逼真的视觉效果,富有想象力的人物造型,起伏跌宕的故事情节,让人真的赞不绝口.电影结束时竟然大家都起立鼓掌,那阵势直逼<星球大战>在美国公映的场景.
今天为了陪朋友,再次为<变形金刚2>的票房做了贡献,我有预感,这很有可能不是最后一次,也许还会陪别人再看一次,天,我要成他们的忠实粉丝了,如果今年票房冠军被它摘得的话,其中也有我一份功劳.
其实今天是和一个朋友道别,可能要2年之后才会再见.或许是我已经习惯了离别,深知所有人终有一天都会离开,只是迟早的事,生命中的过客太多了,我的神经也经受了过多的磨练,越来越大条了,不知是不是好事.
转眼已经到了月底,开学在即,十二分的不愿意,假期里我的活动除了吃好像还是吃,本来想抓紧时间锻炼身体减肥的,但是我的partner不在,一个人的确没有动力,没事,就让我开学以后尽情强奸大家的眼球吧,反正可能大家也习惯了.将强奸进行到底...
我有点累...
今天为了陪朋友,再次为<变形金刚2>
其实今天是和一个朋友道别,可能要2年之后才会再见.或许是我已经习惯了离别,深知所有人终有一天都会离开,只是迟早的事,生命中的过客太多了,我的神经也经受了过多的磨练,越来越大条了,不知是不是好事.
转眼已经到了月底,开学在即,十二分的不愿意,假期里我的活动除了吃好像还是吃,本来想抓紧时间锻炼身体减肥的,但是我的partner不在,一个人的确没有动力,没事,就让我开学以后尽情强奸大家的眼球吧,反正可能大家也习惯了.将强奸进行到底...
我有点累...
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
17 Again
I haven't watched movie in cinema for more than half a year,thanks to ACCA,the last time i went was during December's break,while my mum was here. During the past 6 months, i merely downloaded a few from internet and the interesting thing was none of them really made me impressed.
Today I finally got a chance to visit cinema,somemore on movie day(Wednesday) and it only cost RM7, what a deal! My friend intended to watch, however due to some coward(Hmm,who is that coward? I didn't say anything,please don't look at me), we changed our plan to <17> which was acted by the guy in ,sorry i don't know his name albeit he's quit popular now. We were lucky to get seats in the 2nd last row with a perfect angle. Before the movie started,there was the trailer of ,Oh my God,it's cool! Everything was fantastic which made me couldn't wait to watch its premier on 26th.
The movie was about a guy who didn't pursue his dream to become a basketball player was regretful about his life after he reached his middle age.Suddenly one day he got a chance to return to his teenage which allowed him to live his life all over again. Surprisingly, everything used to be messed up when he's 40 turned out to be perfect when he was 17 again. He had sticked to his choice for the 2nd time:marrying the girl he loved instead of going to university and playing basketball.
The story had a happy ending, or I should say, it's quite funny all along. The laughter was continuously echoing in the cinema, however, after that I couldn't help myself falling into deep thoughts. 17 again? What would I do if I have a chance to go back to 17? I asked my friend, she said she would study hard and maybe go abroad to do her degree. I pondered and pondered, what would I do then? 17 was the age I was suffering immensely from the disastrous mathes, the fierce competition and intense stress in high school. I couldn't assure myself I would be able to handle it better if I have a 2nd chance. But at least I think I will try harder, I mean, really much harder, not to be so rebel and cynical. I have no idea where I would be now if I attended a good university in China as my fellows did. I may end up working as a normal office lady for some company, I might be selected to pursue my Ph. D abroad on full scholarship, or I am just nobody among the 1.5 billion population. I have no certain answer that I would be better or worse than my current situation. Anyway, there's no way to go back and regret is useless. Just focus on what I am doing now, I wish there is no regret if tomorrow never comes although I have so many wishes which haven't be fulfilled.
Thank God, I'm still alive. I'm so grateful that I'm able to wake up in the morning, having breakfast while listening to some music. I'm able to read, write, check news on the internet, hang out with friends. I'm so happy that I can sing, I can play basketball, I can write blog to pour all my grumbles here.I'm happy as there are so many things I can do. Every tiny little thing in life is actually so amazing!
Be grateful and live everyday as if it's your last. No regets...
Today I finally got a chance to visit cinema,somemore on movie day(Wednesday) and it only cost RM7, what a deal! My friend intended to watch
The movie was about a guy who didn't pursue his dream to become a basketball player was regretful about his life after he reached his middle age.Suddenly one day he got a chance to return to his teenage which allowed him to live his life all over again. Surprisingly, everything used to be messed up when he's 40 turned out to be perfect when he was 17 again. He had sticked to his choice for the 2nd time:marrying the girl he loved instead of going to university and playing basketball.
The story had a happy ending, or I should say, it's quite funny all along. The laughter was continuously echoing in the cinema, however, after that I couldn't help myself falling into deep thoughts. 17 again? What would I do if I have a chance to go back to 17? I asked my friend, she said she would study hard and maybe go abroad to do her degree. I pondered and pondered, what would I do then? 17 was the age I was suffering immensely from the disastrous mathes, the fierce competition and intense stress in high school. I couldn't assure myself I would be able to handle it better if I have a 2nd chance. But at least I think I will try harder, I mean, really much harder, not to be so rebel and cynical. I have no idea where I would be now if I attended a good university in China as my fellows did. I may end up working as a normal office lady for some company, I might be selected to pursue my Ph. D abroad on full scholarship, or I am just nobody among the 1.5 billion population. I have no certain answer that I would be better or worse than my current situation. Anyway, there's no way to go back and regret is useless. Just focus on what I am doing now, I wish there is no regret if tomorrow never comes although I have so many wishes which haven't be fulfilled.
Thank God, I'm still alive. I'm so grateful that I'm able to wake up in the morning, having breakfast while listening to some music. I'm able to read, write, check news on the internet, hang out with friends. I'm so happy that I can sing, I can play basketball, I can write blog to pour all my grumbles here.I'm happy as there are so many things I can do. Every tiny little thing in life is actually so amazing!
Be grateful and live everyday as if it's your last. No regets...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
分身乏术
10号,我终于解放了,大有1949年10月1号天安门升国旗的那阵势.群发信息,告知狐朋狗友们我暂时可以摆脱ACCA的魔爪两个星期.大家都非常配合,恭喜我回到现实生活中(原来有ACCA的生活叫非现实啊?)紧接着便是突然间觉得自己成了国宝,想要被entertain的人排成行,我真是名副其实的CEO啊...(chief entertaining officer >_<)
转眼已经过了三天,我感觉自己满脑袋都是浆糊,晚上失眠,白天在外面疯,真是对我脆弱神经的折磨!半夜爬起来在我孤独小台灯的微弱灯光下创作,似乎越热闹的白天预示着越寂寞的黑夜,夜深人静真的适合unwind your thoughts,思想可以尽情放肆地疯狂,不受任何约束,找回最真的自我.
忙碌的时候真的恨不得可以把自己分成几半,每一个我都可以去独立胜任某项工作,那生活不知道会有多么丰富多彩.但是鱼和熊掌不可兼得,分身乏术的时候,不得不做出一些可能我们不情愿的选择,哎,如果一天有48小时那该多好啊...
老妖精看了我的歌词处女作,大加赞赏,但当事人看了之后还没有做出任何评价.老妖精听了我的<隐形的翅膀>后郑重其事的说,或许可以去找个老师专业指导一下,好像真是可塑之材.哈哈,好一个"可塑之材"!我可以"被塑"的variety也稍微有点多吧?拿把西瓜刀,对准我头顶,一刀下去...唔,大功告成!
转眼已经过了三天,我感觉自己满脑袋都是浆糊,晚上失眠,白天在外面疯,真是对我脆弱神经的折磨!半夜爬起来在我孤独小台灯的微弱灯光下创作,似乎越热闹的白天预示着越寂寞的黑夜,夜深人静真的适合unwind your thoughts,思想可以尽情放肆地疯狂,不受任何约束,找回最真的自我.
忙碌的时候真的恨不得可以把自己分成几半,每一个我都可以去独立胜任某项工作,那生活不知道会有多么丰富多彩.但是鱼和熊掌不可兼得,分身乏术的时候,不得不做出一些可能我们不情愿的选择,哎,如果一天有48小时那该多好啊...
老妖精看了我的歌词处女作,大加赞赏,但当事人看了之后还没有做出任何评价.老妖精听了我的<隐形的翅膀>后郑重其事的说,或许可以去找个老师专业指导一下,好像真是可塑之材.哈哈,好一个"可塑之材"!我可以"被塑"的variety也稍微有点多吧?拿把西瓜刀,对准我头顶,一刀下去...唔,大功告成!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
尘埃落定
不好意思借用了阿来的书名作为博客题目,但事实真的如此,就在今天,F5,尘埃落定...
拿到考卷的时候发现题目比预料之中容易,有了一丝丝存活的希望,3小时15分在眨眼之间溜过,不知道结局,也不想和别人对答案(虽然追在我屁股后面对答案的人一大堆),就算是现在知道了正确答案又怎样呢?对整个事情的结局也是丝毫没有影响,sunk cost...
在过去的半年里,老实说,日子不好过,F5给我的压力是无庸置疑巨大的,有点让我喘不过气来,真的是再次经历高考数学的那种折磨,有过之而无不及的.太久没有尝试失败的滋味,也越来越害怕失败,瞻前顾后想得越多,自己给自己的压力就越大.最近一个多星期,我过着"非人"般的生活,每天憋在家里,看书看到想吐的地步.很想出去放松,但是msn上ACCA组群里0的上线人数在时时刻刻给我敲紧钟---大家都在乖乖复习,为什么我就非要想到出去放松? 18班当初的情景历历在目,为什么人家都可以做得到那么憋屈地刻苦学习,都不会郁闷,我就不可以呢?我凭什么搞特殊?"生活太安逸了,工作就被生活所累了."鲁迅的教诲虽然时常在耳边响起,但是起的作用并不明显.越大人也越懒散,我最不愿听到的"浮躁"两个字又被非常贴切地运用到了自己身上.哎,白吃了这么多年饭,都没有一点长进.
考试刚刚结束时,我的心情可以用欣喜若狂来形容都毫不夸张,虽然后天还有一科,显然我已经把F5的结束作为我的"解放日".令人费解的是,那一阵狂喜过了之后,内心居然有一种怅然若失的感觉.好像过去半年自己的很大一部分生活都是关于它,突然之间一切结束了,可能永远不再来了,看到自己堆成山的笔记,资料等等,想着自己受过的精神上的折磨和心灵上的打击,只想摇头.但愿真的是尘埃落定吧,很快我的生活又将会有新的主题,希望不是F5...
拿到考卷的时候发现题目比预料之中容易,有了一丝丝存活的希望,3小时15分在眨眼之间溜过,不知道结局,也不想和别人对答案(虽然追在我屁股后面对答案的人一大堆),就算是现在知道了正确答案又怎样呢?对整个事情的结局也是丝毫没有影响,sunk cost...
在过去的半年里,老实说,日子不好过,F5给我的压力是无庸置疑巨大的,有点让我喘不过气来,真的是再次经历高考数学的那种折磨,有过之而无不及的.太久没有尝试失败的滋味,也越来越害怕失败,瞻前顾后想得越多,自己给自己的压力就越大.最近一个多星期,我过着"非人"般的生活,每天憋在家里,看书看到想吐的地步.很想出去放松,但是msn上ACCA组群里0的上线人数在时时刻刻给我敲紧钟---大家都在乖乖复习,为什么我就非要想到出去放松? 18班当初的情景历历在目,为什么人家都可以做得到那么憋屈地刻苦学习,都不会郁闷,我就不可以呢?我凭什么搞特殊?"生活太安逸了,工作就被生活所累了."鲁迅的教诲虽然时常在耳边响起,但是起的作用并不明显.越大人也越懒散,我最不愿听到的"浮躁"两个字又被非常贴切地运用到了自己身上.哎,白吃了这么多年饭,都没有一点长进.
考试刚刚结束时,我的心情可以用欣喜若狂来形容都毫不夸张,虽然后天还有一科,显然我已经把F5的结束作为我的"解放日".令人费解的是,那一阵狂喜过了之后,内心居然有一种怅然若失的感觉.好像过去半年自己的很大一部分生活都是关于它,突然之间一切结束了,可能永远不再来了,看到自己堆成山的笔记,资料等等,想着自己受过的精神上的折磨和心灵上的打击,只想摇头.但愿真的是尘埃落定吧,很快我的生活又将会有新的主题,希望不是F5...
Friday, June 5, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
考前综合症
6月和12月是ACCA学生最痛苦的两个月,只因为这该死的全球统考.2号我已经上了一次战场,虽然不知结果怎样,但好歹活着走出了考场.从今天起,我的苦日子才算正式开始.F5,6月8号,离现在倒数也不到五天时间了,不知道五天里面可以补上多少漏洞.
早上很乖,睡到自然醒,但是起来之后竟然破天荒的拟定了一个粗略的5天急救F5的计划.虽然了解我的人都知道,我的计划从来没有认真执行过(哎,说起来都丢脸,从小到大,不知道写了多少学习计划,但是结果呢?:p)可是我今天很执着,硬是要把该完成的东西理清楚.计划倒是三下五除二就搞定了,但是实施起来,这个嘛...再议!
最近身体也不怎么好,不知道是考试压力所致还是怎么回事.感觉身体在一夜之间迅速老化,难受到极点的时候好像整个人都要散架了.食欲大增,但是一贯非常良好的消化系统的运作却不甚乐观.居然会出现头一天便秘第二天却拉肚子的状况.TMD, ACCA真是害人不浅!本人好像从来没有这么在意过什么考试,现在这阵势比高考都有过之而无不及啊!从来没有看书看到想吐过...哎,我算是补课吧,谁让我以前在人家拼命的时候却翘脚哈皮呢,现在遭报应了,活该!
哎,我真的不想死...
早上很乖,睡到自然醒,但是起来之后竟然破天荒的拟定了一个粗略的5天急救F5的计划.虽然了解我的人都知道,我的计划从来没有认真执行过(哎,说起来都丢脸,从小到大,不知道写了多少学习计划,但是结果呢?:p)可是我今天很执着,硬是要把该完成的东西理清楚.计划倒是三下五除二就搞定了,但是实施起来,这个嘛...再议!
最近身体也不怎么好,不知道是考试压力所致还是怎么回事.感觉身体在一夜之间迅速老化,难受到极点的时候好像整个人都要散架了.食欲大增,但是一贯非常良好的消化系统的运作却不甚乐观.居然会出现头一天便秘第二天却拉肚子的状况.TMD, ACCA真是害人不浅!本人好像从来没有这么在意过什么考试,现在这阵势比高考都有过之而无不及啊!从来没有看书看到想吐过...哎,我算是补课吧,谁让我以前在人家拼命的时候却翘脚哈皮呢,现在遭报应了,活该!
哎,我真的不想死...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
520
今天只是一个平凡的1/365,但好像又有点特殊意义,5月20号,520...无聊的(或者说是富有联想力的)人们把它和"我爱你"联系在了一起.
是在某个人的陪伴下开始这个520的,虽然还是一贯的冷嘲热讽的腔调,但是内心却好像有些不一样的思绪.我不知道,从来没有这样过,内心每时每刻都在斗争,不知道自己何时变得这么窝囊这么怯懦,丧失了激情.或者说,这叫成长,更理智更稳重了,但是这样的理智带给我什么?满腹的疑惑,犹豫,忐忑,其间夹杂着不敢表露的冲动,在矛盾中痛苦地挣扎着.如果时光可以倒流,我相信自己肯定不会让这样的状况出现.但是为什么现在的我变了?年纪大了,反而变得唯唯诺诺,没有了当初敢爱敢恨敢哭敢笑的勇气.难道是年纪越大心越脆弱?或许真的是怕受伤害吧,还是对自己不够自信?脑袋像浆糊一样,完全无法思考,好像觉得进退两难.无法割舍的感情,但又不确定自己的投入是不是付诸东流.很久没像这样傻过了,或许应该说,已经很久不相信自己还会这么傻了.哎,可悲的感性动物...
爱的深,会不会心一碰就碎
因为我已毫无防备,就像落叶随风飞
动了心,付出的就不问收回
为何女人要的完美,男人总是学不会
身边的流言是是非非,我都能无所谓
但爱的苦涩酸甜,多少次让我醉也让我累
爱你的心就怕你不了解,无法停息像风一样狂野
不愿这样站在高楼的顶点,拥抱一切也面对危险
想你的心总在夜的边缘,幻想那些不确定的画面
为何你总像一把冷冷的火,给我温热却不给我爱的燃点
考试迫近,前所未有的缺乏信心,多么希望有人可以抱着我对我说:我相信,你一定可以!520...
是在某个人的陪伴下开始这个520的,虽然还是一贯的冷嘲热讽的腔调,但是内心却好像有些不一样的思绪.我不知道,从来没有这样过,内心每时每刻都在斗争,不知道自己何时变得这么窝囊这么怯懦,丧失了激情.或者说,这叫成长,更理智更稳重了,但是这样的理智带给我什么?满腹的疑惑,犹豫,忐忑,其间夹杂着不敢表露的冲动,在矛盾中痛苦地挣扎着.如果时光可以倒流,我相信自己肯定不会让这样的状况出现.但是为什么现在的我变了?年纪大了,反而变得唯唯诺诺,没有了当初敢爱敢恨敢哭敢笑的勇气.难道是年纪越大心越脆弱?或许真的是怕受伤害吧,还是对自己不够自信?脑袋像浆糊一样,完全无法思考,好像觉得进退两难.无法割舍的感情,但又不确定自己的投入是不是付诸东流.很久没像这样傻过了,或许应该说,已经很久不相信自己还会这么傻了.哎,可悲的感性动物...
爱的深,会不会心一碰就碎
因为我已毫无防备,就像落叶随风飞
动了心,付出的就不问收回
为何女人要的完美,男人总是学不会
身边的流言是是非非,我都能无所谓
但爱的苦涩酸甜,多少次让我醉也让我累
爱你的心就怕你不了解,无法停息像风一样狂野
不愿这样站在高楼的顶点,拥抱一切也面对危险
想你的心总在夜的边缘,幻想那些不确定的画面
为何你总像一把冷冷的火,给我温热却不给我爱的燃点
考试迫近,前所未有的缺乏信心,多么希望有人可以抱着我对我说:我相信,你一定可以!520...
Monday, May 18, 2009
Mind Over Matter
I first came across this phrase from<Twilight>,have been pondering for months what on earth does mind over matter mean. It's impossible to check dictionary. I roughly have a vague understanding, it was used to describe something to do with love and affections in <Twilight>. But I'm not satisfied with the translation of Chinese version <Twilight>. It was so straight-forward and the beauty of ambiguity disappeared.
I believe not all the literatures can be translated. It's easy to get the literal meaning but it's impossible to translate the spirit and artistic conception. The author's view may be distorted during such conversion. Thus, if we really want to taste the original beauty of literature, we'd better look at the language it was firstly written in.
I guess I have experienced some kind of mind over matter recently. God, I need a cure...
Thursday, May 14, 2009
The flavour of life
几个月前和朋友去唱K时,偶然听到宇多田光这首Flavour of life,虽然不明白她唱的是什么东东,但是喜欢它的旋律,喜欢歌的名字,What's the flavour of life?相信每个人都有自己的答案.
社会各界的人有着各式各样的生活方式,不同的社会地位和层次,不同的个人追求和品位,致使每个人的24个小时都有着天壤之别.有人在不久前跟我建议,我应该找个有钱人嫁了,然后每天拿着credit card去shopping,这样的生活才叫幸福.然而不幸的是,我并不向往这样的生活,因为身边活生生的例子我见过,有钱不等于幸福.但是反之,如果每天为了一日三餐头痛,不管买什么都精打细算地缩手缩脚,一分钱掰成两半花的,也真的活得够累的.
看到一些物质条件可以满足他任何欲望的人,他们的生活其实很苍白,还不如我们的多姿多彩.这是和自身的品位和爱好有关系的.常常会想,会为他们而觉得可惜,如果换成是我就好了,我一定会怎么样怎么样幸福.因为处在憧憬未来的阶段,觉得一切都是美好的,充满希望的,但是老实说,当我们真正达成梦想的时候,不敢保证我们会有当初期待的那种幸福的感觉.
真正意义上的生活的味道是怎样的?没有人可以给出标准答案,因为每个人心里都有自己的标准答案.大部分人都希望可以以自己的答案去衡量别人的生活,这就是为什么会物以类聚,相似的人生观价值观会把人们拉到一起.其实没有必要指点别人的生活,一句话:冷暖自知.
生活的味道,不管怎样,学会体味其中每一丝每一毫的Flavour,不管是酸甜苦辣都好,来过活过经历过思考过,就够了...
社会各界的人有着各式各样的生活方式,不同的社会地位和层次,不同的个人追求和品位,致使每个人的24个小时都有着天壤之别.有人在不久前跟我建议,我应该找个有钱人嫁了,然后每天拿着credit card去shopping,这样的生活才叫幸福.然而不幸的是,我并不向往这样的生活,因为身边活生生的例子我见过,有钱不等于幸福.但是反之,如果每天为了一日三餐头痛,不管买什么都精打细算地缩手缩脚,一分钱掰成两半花的,也真的活得够累的.
看到一些物质条件可以满足他任何欲望的人,他们的生活其实很苍白,还不如我们的多姿多彩.这是和自身的品位和爱好有关系的.常常会想,会为他们而觉得可惜,如果换成是我就好了,我一定会怎么样怎么样幸福.因为处在憧憬未来的阶段,觉得一切都是美好的,充满希望的,但是老实说,当我们真正达成梦想的时候,不敢保证我们会有当初期待的那种幸福的感觉.
真正意义上的生活的味道是怎样的?没有人可以给出标准答案,因为每个人心里都有自己的标准答案.大部分人都希望可以以自己的答案去衡量别人的生活,这就是为什么会物以类聚,相似的人生观价值观会把人们拉到一起.其实没有必要指点别人的生活,一句话:冷暖自知.
生活的味道,不管怎样,学会体味其中每一丝每一毫的Flavour,不管是酸甜苦辣都好,来过活过经历过思考过,就够了...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Murmur in May
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May.
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
在经历了十几天酷热的煎熬之后,今天终于喜降甘露.闻到久违的雨水冲洗水泥地板的味道,异常兴奋.雨后空气格外清新,第一次在这个蒸笼国度有了户外散步的经历.路边受过洗礼的花在微风中格外动人.朋友停驻在花旁边好久,踟躇不前,很郑重地伸手采了一朵,她的一本正经让我颇为惊讶.她看着手中的花好久,然后对我说:有一句诗,好像是说有花可以采的时候一定要采,不然等到以后没有花的时候,后悔也来不及了.我顿悟:"劝君莫惜金缕衣,劝君惜取少年时,花开堪折直须折,莫待无花空折枝"...
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May.
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
在经历了十几天酷热的煎熬之后,今天终于喜降甘露.闻到久违的雨水冲洗水泥地板的味道,异常兴奋.雨后空气格外清新,第一次在这个蒸笼国度有了户外散步的经历.路边受过洗礼的花在微风中格外动人.朋友停驻在花旁边好久,踟躇不前,很郑重地伸手采了一朵,她的一本正经让我颇为惊讶.她看着手中的花好久,然后对我说:有一句诗,好像是说有花可以采的时候一定要采,不然等到以后没有花的时候,后悔也来不及了.我顿悟:"劝君莫惜金缕衣,劝君惜取少年时,花开堪折直须折,莫待无花空折枝"...
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