昨天晚上我再一次地一个人去听马来西亚爱乐乐团的音乐会。这是四年以来的不知道第几次，除了08年Nora在这里的时候，陪我去了一次，之后我都是独行侠。每次在场的观众里面大部分都是洋人，而且年纪都偏大，华人更是老头老太太居多，要么就是父母带着小孩子的，很少有我这个年龄段的人。可能是跟大马的家庭教育有关系吧，除非是学乐器的孩子，否则父母很少有人会熏陶孩子们欣赏古典音乐，原因很简单，父母自己也不懂。
今天上完了第二节韩语课，满脑袋都是啊涩哟，啊尼哟，我觉得我老师肯定认为我蠢到家了，百教不会的，老师自己是聪明又勤奋的人，遇到我这种不太聪明的学生，就只有吐血的份了。我在吐血了近两个小时后，回到家一开电脑就看到喜讯---ATP马来西亚公开赛3月4号决赛的门票团购价仅35块！参赛者有大威，彭帅等等。可惜的是没有万人迷莎娃，如果有的话，我怕我会爱上她。赛事的奖金是220k美金，跟其他普通ATP赛事一样，并没有因为是在这种非发达国家而缩水。看到这么白菜的票价，我真的hold不住了！如果是上海公开赛的话，我相信票价在后面加个0都不止。心动不如行动，我想马上订票，转念一想，问问朋友们看有没有人感兴趣的。于是乎，在面子书上大肆宣扬一番，问了一群人，结果是，我不说你也知道，感兴趣的人数为零。
我觉得我没必要太过于在意做某件事情有没有人陪，只要我自己开心就好，很多事情是可以一个人去做的，也可以很享受的。尽管如此，还是偶尔禁不住感叹，有没有人是跟我志趣相投，臭味相同的呢？如果有的话，我肯定会嫁给他/她，或者缠着他/她一辈子。要找到跟自己有某个相同兴趣的人很容易，可是鬼知道为什么我有那么一大堆兴趣爱好，如果个个都要跟我是交集，那真的是很难。十多年前我就知道，不可能要求一双手又会打篮球又会拉小提琴，因为二者根本就是背道而驰的。
愿我能早日停止幻想，从睡梦中醒来，另一个我，根本不存在，所谓的soulmate，是我想太多了吧......
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Legends are leaving us, one by one
It was an ordinary Sunday yesterday and I was going to have my regular activity with friends---our karaoke session. While I was browsing through news before leaving home, something popped out and caught my eyes, Whitney Houston passed away in Beverly Hilton Hotel in LA! There was no reason given and she is only 48 years old.
It took me quite some time to digest what this news really meant. Is it that Whitney who deeply touched our hearts by her all time legend ? I don't think I need any explanation on how famous that song is coz even my mum who does not speak a single word of English is familiar with the rhythm. After I show her the MV, she recognized Whitney immediately although she can't pronounce her name. Shame on somebody who does not know who Whitney Houston is yet still dares to claim that he knows more English songs than me. Honestly speaking I have not encountered any Chinese who knows more English songs than me. As they accompanied me through the years during my childhood and a freak like me seldom listened to any Chinese pop songs before 2001.
The movie is already 20 years old, so is . 20 years just passed through our fingers like nobody's business.Fast forward to 1998, which is from the OST of the movie ,I only got to know it in 2000, from the magazine if I'm not mistaken. It accompanied me through the hardship of my father's leaving and the cruel high school entry exam. While every teacher in my Junior high was telling me that I could not make it for CQ No.1 Middle School, this song gave me enough courage at that crucial point of time while nobody was there for me.The only thing I could rely on is my own faith and belief. I believed in myself and miracles did happen. That was for the first time,I got to know the power of faith.
The falling of another super star, it taught us a few lessons. For women,marriage is like a reborn. What kind of 2nd life are you gonna have is fully dependent on what kind of people you marry. Whitney married an ass and she was deeply in love with the ass which resulted in her tragedy today.I really feel sorry for her, it's a huge loss for us human beings as we really don't have so many wonderful vocals around us.Her death made me feel quite emotional, no less than MJ's. As a person who loves to reminisce, I'd always write some grumbles after some issues struck my heart strings.Whitney, we will always love you.
To all my dear readers,i'm just grumbling,no offence. By the way, happy Valentine's day to all, whether you are single or in a sweet relationship, that does not matter. As long as you love yourself, everyday is a Valentine's day!
It took me quite some time to digest what this news really meant. Is it that Whitney who deeply touched our hearts by her all time legend ? I don't think I need any explanation on how famous that song is coz even my mum who does not speak a single word of English is familiar with the rhythm. After I show her the MV, she recognized Whitney immediately although she can't pronounce her name. Shame on somebody who does not know who Whitney Houston is yet still dares to claim that he knows more English songs than me. Honestly speaking I have not encountered any Chinese who knows more English songs than me. As they accompanied me through the years during my childhood and a freak like me seldom listened to any Chinese pop songs before 2001.
The movie
The falling of another super star, it taught us a few lessons. For women,marriage is like a reborn. What kind of 2nd life are you gonna have is fully dependent on what kind of people you marry. Whitney married an ass and she was deeply in love with the ass which resulted in her tragedy today.I really feel sorry for her, it's a huge loss for us human beings as we really don't have so many wonderful vocals around us.Her death made me feel quite emotional, no less than MJ's. As a person who loves to reminisce, I'd always write some grumbles after some issues struck my heart strings.Whitney, we will always love you.
To all my dear readers,i'm just grumbling,no offence. By the way, happy Valentine's day to all, whether you are single or in a sweet relationship, that does not matter. As long as you love yourself, everyday is a Valentine's day!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
我忘了和你说再见
转眼间，兔子年过去了，我们迎来了华人最喜欢的图腾---龙。我敢说除了属龙的朋友们不是特别开心之外，可以算得上皆大欢喜，大家都觉得龙很吉利，几千年的传统是根深蒂固的。新婚夫妇或者已经怀孕的准妈妈们更是巴不得自己生个龙子龙女。本人说不上来属龙到底好还是不好，只是我朋友里面的龙儿们，不管是比我小两岁的龙还是比我大十年的龙，个个都不简单。王者的象征，想必也差不到哪里去才是。
今年可以说是我最悲催的一个春节。刚好遇到我才开始工作，原本以为新人是没年假的，所以压根儿没想过回家这念头。谁知第一天看到我经理她就问我要不要请假回家，我真不知该哭还是该笑。现在才来说，飞机票都让人家买光了，于是我下定决心要在吉隆坡过一个平淡寂寞而波澜不惊的年。
放假四天，我还不至于沦落到完全没地方去的地步，还是有很多地方可以让我“窝藏”的，等我藏好了，就算天皇老子都找不到。这次去探望阳，很久不见的老朋友，上次见她她还大着肚子呢，现在女儿都已经快要一岁了。时间真的不饶人，太快了，快得我们还没意识到它存在的时候它就已经从指缝中溜走了。阳的家还是那么宽敞明亮，鱼缸里的小金鱼变成了一条银龙，院子里郁郁葱葱长了许多甘蔗和竹子。房子里只是多了一个吱吱呀呀的小生命，片刻不能安静的，真怀念我们自己小时候那种精力充沛不知疲倦的状态。
原本平静的年，被平平的一个拜年电话打破了。犹如一道流星划过了天际，用短暂锋利的光芒划破了无边的黑暗。我开着阳的小车在花园里面转悠练技术，手机响了，我只看到了+86，后面的区号是陌生的。手机响了半天，我也想了半天，毫无头绪是谁会在年初一的傍晚打电话给我。接电话的时候我刻意的没有说hello，取而代之的是国内通用的“喂”，电话那头传来非常熟悉的但却好久没听到的声音：思维吗？是我。“思维”，本小姐的大名，很少很少有人知道，更少更少有人用。突然间我觉得自己的名字好好听，特别是用平平那么好听的声音叫。距离我上一次听到他的声音已经一年多过去了，他说他很怀念我们一起读书的日子，还是那时候无忧无虑。我自己回头看看，过去的生活，ACCA那段算是一个充满快乐的篇章。除了考试压力之外，其他的事情几乎都不在我操心的范围内。想想曾经以为我们作为注册会计师，会过着类似的生活。岂知今日的大家各奔东西，在各行各业从事着各种稀奇古怪的工作。心中的感慨是说不出的，不知道是什么滋味。
平平说很怀念我这个子期，没有了子期，伯牙的琴也不会再响，就算响了也没有人懂。于是我把偷录的平平的demo拿出来听，谁知道三千年没哭过的我，眼泪非常不争气的在大年初一不住地流。当初说再见的时候，我们都不知道到底还能不能再相见。不过我相信，我们大家都来日方长，一切皆有可能！
龙年，祝愿在世界各地的兄弟姐妹们，大家一切都好。不管身在何方，我们抬起头，看到的都是同一片天空。在苍穹下，能够想起彼此，也就足够了...
今年可以说是我最悲催的一个春节。刚好遇到我才开始工作，原本以为新人是没年假的，所以压根儿没想过回家这念头。谁知第一天看到我经理她就问我要不要请假回家，我真不知该哭还是该笑。现在才来说，飞机票都让人家买光了，于是我下定决心要在吉隆坡过一个平淡寂寞而波澜不惊的年。
放假四天，我还不至于沦落到完全没地方去的地步，还是有很多地方可以让我“窝藏”的，等我藏好了，就算天皇老子都找不到。这次去探望阳，很久不见的老朋友，上次见她她还大着肚子呢，现在女儿都已经快要一岁了。时间真的不饶人，太快了，快得我们还没意识到它存在的时候它就已经从指缝中溜走了。阳的家还是那么宽敞明亮，鱼缸里的小金鱼变成了一条银龙，院子里郁郁葱葱长了许多甘蔗和竹子。房子里只是多了一个吱吱呀呀的小生命，片刻不能安静的，真怀念我们自己小时候那种精力充沛不知疲倦的状态。
原本平静的年，被平平的一个拜年电话打破了。犹如一道流星划过了天际，用短暂锋利的光芒划破了无边的黑暗。我开着阳的小车在花园里面转悠练技术，手机响了，我只看到了+86，后面的区号是陌生的。手机响了半天，我也想了半天，毫无头绪是谁会在年初一的傍晚打电话给我。接电话的时候我刻意的没有说hello，取而代之的是国内通用的“喂”，电话那头传来非常熟悉的但却好久没听到的声音：思维吗？是我。“思维”，本小姐的大名，很少很少有人知道，更少更少有人用。突然间我觉得自己的名字好好听，特别是用平平那么好听的声音叫。距离我上一次听到他的声音已经一年多过去了，他说他很怀念我们一起读书的日子，还是那时候无忧无虑。我自己回头看看，过去的生活，ACCA那段算是一个充满快乐的篇章。除了考试压力之外，其他的事情几乎都不在我操心的范围内。想想曾经以为我们作为注册会计师，会过着类似的生活。岂知今日的大家各奔东西，在各行各业从事着各种稀奇古怪的工作。心中的感慨是说不出的，不知道是什么滋味。
平平说很怀念我这个子期，没有了子期，伯牙的琴也不会再响，就算响了也没有人懂。于是我把偷录的平平的demo拿出来听，谁知道三千年没哭过的我，眼泪非常不争气的在大年初一不住地流。当初说再见的时候，我们都不知道到底还能不能再相见。不过我相信，我们大家都来日方长，一切皆有可能！
龙年，祝愿在世界各地的兄弟姐妹们，大家一切都好。不管身在何方，我们抬起头，看到的都是同一片天空。在苍穹下，能够想起彼此，也就足够了...
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Silent night, holy night
Today is Christmas eve of 2011 and it happened to fall on a Saturday which resulted in a long weekend holiday. Yesterday since noon time, I've experienced how horrendous the traffic jam was. Along federal highway,heading towards Midvalley Mega Mall, the cars are crawling like caterpillars. Walking is definitely way faster than stuck in the jam. So I altered my plan to directly head back home after having lunch with friends. I can't imagine how bad it will be when it comes to tonight's countdown time. That's why today I decided to relax at home.
Somebody asked me am i not bored? I was surprised as I don't get it why I should be bored while having a laptop that connects to internet.You really got plenty of things to do and it all depends on how far does your interests go. For a person who is indifferent about everything, even travelling to the most awesome place can't light him up. Yet for someone who loves life passionately, every tiny little drop of the vast ocean of life can make his day.
Recall my Christmas eve during the past few years, I had "silent night" almost every year. I normally hang out on Christmas day after the crazy people are dismissed. As I'm really scared of the hectic crowds, either in China or Malaysia.I'd rather stay at home, have a peaceful mind and devour myself in some Christmas music while enjoy doing something I like. And also, reserve energy for the "happy hour" session tomorrow.
When I went to buy my lunch today I said "Merry Christmas" to the hostess. She hurriedly apologized to me saying that because she is not Christian therefore she is not so aware of Christmas. I told her, not only Christians can celebrate Christmas. Christmas is a season when you show your beloved ones how much you care for them. Irrespective of your religion, your skin colour or your nationality, you are entitled to the joy of the season's greetings.
For Christians,silent night is holy night, and the Jesus Savior is born. I'm praying for a fruitful 2012 ahead. God bless!
Somebody asked me am i not bored? I was surprised as I don't get it why I should be bored while having a laptop that connects to internet.You really got plenty of things to do and it all depends on how far does your interests go. For a person who is indifferent about everything, even travelling to the most awesome place can't light him up. Yet for someone who loves life passionately, every tiny little drop of the vast ocean of life can make his day.
Recall my Christmas eve during the past few years, I had "silent night" almost every year. I normally hang out on Christmas day after the crazy people are dismissed. As I'm really scared of the hectic crowds, either in China or Malaysia.I'd rather stay at home, have a peaceful mind and devour myself in some Christmas music while enjoy doing something I like. And also, reserve energy for the "happy hour" session tomorrow.
When I went to buy my lunch today I said "Merry Christmas" to the hostess. She hurriedly apologized to me saying that because she is not Christian therefore she is not so aware of Christmas. I told her, not only Christians can celebrate Christmas. Christmas is a season when you show your beloved ones how much you care for them. Irrespective of your religion, your skin colour or your nationality, you are entitled to the joy of the season's greetings.
For Christians,silent night is holy night, and the Jesus Savior is born. I'm praying for a fruitful 2012 ahead. God bless!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
想念家乡的味道
重庆人，十个有九个都是吃货。每天都在想，中午要吃什么，晚上要吃什么。身边林林总总的选择让人目不暇接，随口一数，川菜从主食到小吃，美味一大堆。离开家乡这些年，人们不止一次的问我，你想家吗？我的回答总是让人大吃一惊：哦，不太想家，但是想家里的吃的。因为重庆对于我而言，除了家人之外，值得我留恋的就只有美食了。家人可以每天在网上见面，但是对美食的想念不能单单靠“看”来解决，望梅止渴的结果是越望越渴。
一个人住在新家，百无聊赖，朋友们要么忙工作要么忙考试，每天没事在家翘脚的除了我没几个。我独自一人在这遥远的Damansara，远离我熟悉的Sunway，我的圈子，难免有点寂寞。这个时候就会不由自主的想念家乡的味道了。何洁送我的萝卜干我还很不舍的留着2包，以备不时之需。昨天晚上躺在床上，突然想吃川菜，这种凭空而出的念头曾经有过，那时候我就悲催的爬起来看电脑里面川菜的照片。而现在，越来越多的川菜馆在吉隆坡拔地而起，望梅止渴倒是不必。但问题是，要找到几个志同道合能吃辣椒的友人实属不易，马来西亚人对辣椒的免疫力不是个个都像重庆人那么厉害，而且本地菜肴辣的感觉不一样，所以对于他们而言是蛮大的挑战。
减轻我的思念之情其实有很多途径，除了吃川菜之外，还可以吃川味的零食。现在的中国人是越来越会做生意了，在吉隆坡开了网店售卖国内的各种零食小吃以及调味品。不用我说你都猜得到，老干妈系列是必不可少的，还有各大品牌的方便面，米线，粉丝等等。我最爱的白家方便粉丝以1块9一包的价格高居方便面的榜首。我不记得国内卖多少钱了，好像是2块钱人民币吧，坐个飞机过来，价格就翻倍了，不过也好，可以一解我相思之苦。50块免费送货，我随便逛了几圈点了几点购物车就已经一大堆东西，早就超过50块了。网购有时候比真实的购物更加花钱如流水，因为你边看边点，你根本不会意识到购物车里已经有多少东西了。不像现实生活中，如果你的手推车已经满了，相信你肯定会收手。
美食没有绝对的，只有相对的，每个人都会觉得自己从小吃到大的食物是最好吃的。我的味蕾比较多元化，可以接受各种各样的食物，对于其中的某些也是有偏好。然而我觉得今生今世无法改变的，就是对家乡味道的执着和永恒不变的想念。
一个人住在新家，百无聊赖，朋友们要么忙工作要么忙考试，每天没事在家翘脚的除了我没几个。我独自一人在这遥远的Damansara，远离我熟悉的Sunway，我的圈子，难免有点寂寞。这个时候就会不由自主的想念家乡的味道了。何洁送我的萝卜干我还很不舍的留着2包，以备不时之需。昨天晚上躺在床上，突然想吃川菜，这种凭空而出的念头曾经有过，那时候我就悲催的爬起来看电脑里面川菜的照片。而现在，越来越多的川菜馆在吉隆坡拔地而起，望梅止渴倒是不必。但问题是，要找到几个志同道合能吃辣椒的友人实属不易，马来西亚人对辣椒的免疫力不是个个都像重庆人那么厉害，而且本地菜肴辣的感觉不一样，所以对于他们而言是蛮大的挑战。
减轻我的思念之情其实有很多途径，除了吃川菜之外，还可以吃川味的零食。现在的中国人是越来越会做生意了，在吉隆坡开了网店售卖国内的各种零食小吃以及调味品。不用我说你都猜得到，老干妈系列是必不可少的，还有各大品牌的方便面，米线，粉丝等等。我最爱的白家方便粉丝以1块9一包的价格高居方便面的榜首。我不记得国内卖多少钱了，好像是2块钱人民币吧，坐个飞机过来，价格就翻倍了，不过也好，可以一解我相思之苦。50块免费送货，我随便逛了几圈点了几点购物车就已经一大堆东西，早就超过50块了。网购有时候比真实的购物更加花钱如流水，因为你边看边点，你根本不会意识到购物车里已经有多少东西了。不像现实生活中，如果你的手推车已经满了，相信你肯定会收手。
美食没有绝对的，只有相对的，每个人都会觉得自己从小吃到大的食物是最好吃的。我的味蕾比较多元化，可以接受各种各样的食物，对于其中的某些也是有偏好。然而我觉得今生今世无法改变的，就是对家乡味道的执着和永恒不变的想念。
Saturday, December 3, 2011
The last month of 2011
Out of sudden looking at the calendar, it has come to the last month of 2011. Time is really scary, by the time we have time to look at it, it's already gone long ago. Every year end I will do my accustomed reflect of the whole year. Here comes the question that i'm most unwilling to face. What have I done during 2011?
The first half of 2011 was all about sweat and stress. I experienced my final exams of ACCA, and thank God I made it through. Starts from June onward, I've been really enjoying life, meanwhile had a two-month post-exam nervous period waiting for my final result.Backpacked to Bangkok, which realised my dream of at least every year visit one place that i've never been to. My little escape was always sweet and unforgettable and i've already started to miss that feeling although it was only couple of months ago.
I went home after my Bangkok trip, stayed for one month, kept on dreaming of the result release date. I guess that's because i've carried too much on my shoulders. Not because i'm willing to, it's just life, we've got no choice. Fortunately I didn't let everybody down, my hilarity reached climax after 22nd August. After that God gave me a huge joke when i started my job hunting. I don't think words can describe how terrible i felt when i'm forced to face the truth that my nationality really got me tons of problems. My first choice of employment didn't even give a damn on my CV. Being a winner for so many years, it was really awful to be knocked down by reality. But sometimes we have to make some sacrifices and surrender. Life is not all smooth without a hitch and the storms make it more unexpected and challenging.
Finally, I guess God has given me what He thinks is the best for me. He taught me to forego those which are beyond my reach and grasp everything and every moment i'm able to control.I already adjusted my mentality to a "going to start work" mode, however, suddenly I got one more month to arrange my new life in Bandar Utama. I have no complaints for this. Seriously i guess i need more preparations, i need to train my strength, sharpen my weapon and polish my armour as I've been in the "cease-fire" mode for so long and January 2012 would be a perfect commencement of new phase of life!
Christmas is around the corner,I can smell it in the air everywhere i go. When i think back,i really cherish every Christmas gift i received through the years. I feel delighted and can't help of smiling when i heard the Christmas songs in the shopping malls. The Christmas trees are as great as before and they are gonna be better next year!
If 2012 is to be the end of world, let it be, live in the moment and not to worry about tomorrow!
The first half of 2011 was all about sweat and stress. I experienced my final exams of ACCA, and thank God I made it through. Starts from June onward, I've been really enjoying life, meanwhile had a two-month post-exam nervous period waiting for my final result.Backpacked to Bangkok, which realised my dream of at least every year visit one place that i've never been to. My little escape was always sweet and unforgettable and i've already started to miss that feeling although it was only couple of months ago.
I went home after my Bangkok trip, stayed for one month, kept on dreaming of the result release date. I guess that's because i've carried too much on my shoulders. Not because i'm willing to, it's just life, we've got no choice. Fortunately I didn't let everybody down, my hilarity reached climax after 22nd August. After that God gave me a huge joke when i started my job hunting. I don't think words can describe how terrible i felt when i'm forced to face the truth that my nationality really got me tons of problems. My first choice of employment didn't even give a damn on my CV. Being a winner for so many years, it was really awful to be knocked down by reality. But sometimes we have to make some sacrifices and surrender. Life is not all smooth without a hitch and the storms make it more unexpected and challenging.
Finally, I guess God has given me what He thinks is the best for me. He taught me to forego those which are beyond my reach and grasp everything and every moment i'm able to control.I already adjusted my mentality to a "going to start work" mode, however, suddenly I got one more month to arrange my new life in Bandar Utama. I have no complaints for this. Seriously i guess i need more preparations, i need to train my strength, sharpen my weapon and polish my armour as I've been in the "cease-fire" mode for so long and January 2012 would be a perfect commencement of new phase of life!
Christmas is around the corner,I can smell it in the air everywhere i go. When i think back,i really cherish every Christmas gift i received through the years. I feel delighted and can't help of smiling when i heard the Christmas songs in the shopping malls. The Christmas trees are as great as before and they are gonna be better next year!
If 2012 is to be the end of world, let it be, live in the moment and not to worry about tomorrow!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
步步惊心
俗话说，演戏的是疯子，看戏的是傻子。如今我便做了一件自己不常做的傻事，追一部名叫《步步惊心》的电视剧。没日没夜的几天下来，我自己也傻在其中，泪点超低，被白赚了几公升眼泪。话说穿越剧倒也不是没见过，好多年前变看过了《穿越时空的爱恋》，如今也不大记得具体的情节，只知道穿越到古代的现代人都可以凭着对历史的了解和比古人聪明的大脑混得不错。若曦是真的混得不错，可是这一路看来，我感慨万千，心中除了痛，还是痛。
面对温柔体贴的八爷多年来的付出，女孩的心难免被俘获。可是若曦因为知道历史，她因为爱而要求八爷退出皇位的争夺，然而老八多年来被冷落，压制在内心的对权力无法抵挡的欲望令他毅然选择放弃了若曦。我没有恨他，说白一点，男人嘛，总该是要以事业为重的。就算他是活在今天，事业与爱情之间，事业也应该是摆在前面的。只是觉得有些遗憾和无奈，现实残酷无情的逼着我们做出一些我们不情愿的选择。
四爷是不多话的人，深沉内敛但是却在小事上看得到他的细心。他为了若曦可以什么都豁出去，伤在若曦身上他的心会更痛。一个这么严肃认真的人肯在一个女人花这样的功夫，就连石头心肠都会被感动吧。看到他为若曦做的一切，我的眼泪一个劲儿的流。说是羡慕吧，也有，说是怀念吧，也有，感慨也有，感动也有...
天朝的皇宫，在里面有多难生存，恐怕是现代人难以想象的。宫里的人多嘴杂，作为一个小奴才真的需要谨言慎行。我可以想象那种说一个字，做一个动作都要经过深思熟虑的情形是多么的熬心。难怪若曦觉得紫禁城是个牢笼，在待了二十多年之后，终于忍不了要去寻求原本属于自己的自由。若曦虽然聪明伶俐，处事周全圆滑，可是她也是个性情中人，对朋友肝胆相照，对爱情勇敢执着，她的感性是最终让她痛苦的原因。或许是因为有太多的人和事是她放不下的，这才注定了雍正登基之后，她也无心享受这最后难得的胜利和幸福。她的固执倔强使她把许多难处都憋在心里，宁可雍正误会，宁可牺牲掉幸福，去换回她想要的自由。然而，你我都清楚，自由并不等于幸福，看你自己怎么想罢了。引用戏里一句话：凡事没有对错，只是立场不同而已。
回头看步步也让我做了不少功课，历史方面，文学方面，让我顿时间觉得，不知道从何时开始，我对祖国的渊源文化已经那么疏远了。曾经烂熟于心的诗词歌赋，如今只是能偶尔记起来几个片段，再也没有心思去做当年的那个所谓的文艺青年，好久没有醉心于文学的魅力，笔下也日渐无光。
人生若只如初见，那该多好啊，便没有了后来这一切的冤孽...
面对温柔体贴的八爷多年来的付出，女孩的心难免被俘获。可是若曦因为知道历史，她因为爱而要求八爷退出皇位的争夺，然而老八多年来被冷落，压制在内心的对权力无法抵挡的欲望令他毅然选择放弃了若曦。我没有恨他，说白一点，男人嘛，总该是要以事业为重的。就算他是活在今天，事业与爱情之间，事业也应该是摆在前面的。只是觉得有些遗憾和无奈，现实残酷无情的逼着我们做出一些我们不情愿的选择。
四爷是不多话的人，深沉内敛但是却在小事上看得到他的细心。他为了若曦可以什么都豁出去，伤在若曦身上他的心会更痛。一个这么严肃认真的人肯在一个女人花这样的功夫，就连石头心肠都会被感动吧。看到他为若曦做的一切，我的眼泪一个劲儿的流。说是羡慕吧，也有，说是怀念吧，也有，感慨也有，感动也有...
天朝的皇宫，在里面有多难生存，恐怕是现代人难以想象的。宫里的人多嘴杂，作为一个小奴才真的需要谨言慎行。我可以想象那种说一个字，做一个动作都要经过深思熟虑的情形是多么的熬心。难怪若曦觉得紫禁城是个牢笼，在待了二十多年之后，终于忍不了要去寻求原本属于自己的自由。若曦虽然聪明伶俐，处事周全圆滑，可是她也是个性情中人，对朋友肝胆相照，对爱情勇敢执着，她的感性是最终让她痛苦的原因。或许是因为有太多的人和事是她放不下的，这才注定了雍正登基之后，她也无心享受这最后难得的胜利和幸福。她的固执倔强使她把许多难处都憋在心里，宁可雍正误会，宁可牺牲掉幸福，去换回她想要的自由。然而，你我都清楚，自由并不等于幸福，看你自己怎么想罢了。引用戏里一句话：凡事没有对错，只是立场不同而已。
回头看步步也让我做了不少功课，历史方面，文学方面，让我顿时间觉得，不知道从何时开始，我对祖国的渊源文化已经那么疏远了。曾经烂熟于心的诗词歌赋，如今只是能偶尔记起来几个片段，再也没有心思去做当年的那个所谓的文艺青年，好久没有醉心于文学的魅力，笔下也日渐无光。
人生若只如初见，那该多好啊，便没有了后来这一切的冤孽...
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