Monday, February 21, 2011

Waiting is torturing

This is not my first time to waffle on my blog on the exam result day, the only difference is this year I haven't got my result yet until now. I've been waiting for the stup*d email for 3 hours and it never comes. The lame ACCA website is down due to overload. My phone keeps on ringing, everybody is asking me how it is yet I couldn't give them an answer! Hearing about friends' success and failure while waiting for my own destiny in the dark is seriously not fun.

My initial plan is, after getting result at 1pm, either happy or sad for 1 hour, then go to MCO to book my revision class seat and probably have a feast for dinner, either to reward myself or to release tension. However, since a few days back, my luck was not with me: I was locked in the sitting room and it costs me quite a fortune, my house internet broke down just one night before my result is released. I don't know what do all these augur. Just pray hard for the best!

I'm looking forward to my reward which is a backpacking trip to either Bangkok/Ho Chi Minh City/Phuket and today is the last day of the promotion. If I can't get the result by today then the whole thing is gone. God bless, I know you love me!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

欲哭无泪的元宵节

今天是正月十五,元宵节,又是跟家人团聚的日子,我又再次没得团聚,没得团聚是小,但是今天发生了一件超级倒霉的事,我担心了无数次的状况终于出现了---我把钥匙锁在了房间里!

家里空空如也就我一个人,穿着熨得笔直的衬衫和西装裙,拿着我的OL包,傻傻的望着墙壁,不知道该怎么办。室友全部都在很远的地方,不可能及时赶回来救我;学校今天是第一堂课,几十个学生已经坐在教室里了,老师是唯一一个不能翘课的。老王叫了一个开锁匠飞车来我家救我,20分钟之后,人是来了,带着工具,第一句话就是:开一个锁90块。我听到差点没晕过去,但是我大脑已经丧失了思考的功能,没办法,只能默许。他三下五除二就搞定了我家的大门两个锁和我房间的锁,会算术的人都知道3*90=270。是的,就这么杯具的,270块长翅膀飞走了。

不幸中的万幸是,开锁匠开车送了我一程去学校,顺便去取钱给他,270块,你真的是要我的命,多少节课的辛苦就这么去了,瞬间化为乌有。这个时候才真正知道什么是“挣钱犹如针挑土,花钱犹如水推沙”。到了学校,我迟到20分钟,在跟学生们解释了理由之后,大家都对我深表同情,也是真的只要稍微跟我“通感”一下都会知道我有多郁闷,虽然我是一直在苦笑着诉说这一切,但苦笑是因为哭不出来。。。

打电话给老妖精诉苦,好像很久没跟她诉苦过了,不知道是因为没什么苦还是我已经习惯了。突然之间觉得有点累,面临21号巨大的压力,一个人默默承受,不管是怎样的结果,这一切都得要继续。真的希望6月能给这种生活画上一个句号,好像走了太久,有些厌倦了,不是厌倦沿途的风景,而是厌倦没有尽头没有终点的迷茫。一个人的生活可以过得糊里糊涂,有时忙碌有时懒散,有时随心所欲。但是老妖精今天说,我表哥最近很忙,晚上1,2点才回家,他老妈竟然还为他守门,熬鸡汤给他补身体。我说我在这里半夜3点不睡觉也没见鸡汤在哪里,习惯了这种凡事都“自己保重”的生活,不知道这叫所谓的独立还是叫可怜的孩子没人管,算了不想去想这些。

羡慕那些有家人在身边的孩子,但是又不愿舍弃这自由飘荡的生活,我自作孽,活该!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

神马都是浮云

沉睡了千年的梦

沧海桑田没人懂

斑驳的琴弦是为谁拂动

尘封的往事被谁触碰


Rap:

遥想当年征战沙场

金戈铁马箭在弦上

英雄气概无人能挡

马啼嘶咧尘土飞扬男儿壮志守边疆

伊人在远方盼望郎君何时还乡



不经意穿越时空

久违那饭香茶浓

滴泪的烛火眷恋着西风

满腹的怅惘不眠三更


Rap:

遥想当年征战沙场

金戈铁马箭在弦上

英雄气概无人能挡

马啼嘶咧尘土飞扬男儿壮志守边疆

伊人在远方盼望郎君何时还乡

一切都已成过往

不朽也会被遗忘

权势不过梦一场

收拾行囊速返乡与伊人共享佳酿

所谓的功名利禄都只是乌托邦


This holyshit for SG958 killed millions of my brain cells and it was "The holy mother of Christ" according to somebody.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Rabbit year, good year!


Didn't notice that more than a month has passed since my last post. Lazy as I've always been, blogging seems to be the last on my "to-do list" especially during festival season.

Finally the year of tiger has gone, phew, it was not a very good year for me, but thank God that I still managed to get through all my papers. Rabbit year should be more merciful and tender compared to the vigorous tiger which myself represents. At least I had a good beginning---4 days sweet escape+5 star backpacking experience in Malacca. Thanks to MCB, who was my tour guide+driver+body guard for 4 days, I really appreciate that and it was wonderful to meet your family, they are amiable and lovely and they made my CNY not lonely.

11 days holiday seem to finish too soon, unwillingly, I'm back to school again. I struggled like hell this morning to get up early, knowing that there would be a kit kat waiting for me in class. Here you go, there really is. But another 10 fellows in the class are also having it which I don't really like. However, I've decided that my new hobby is to collect Kit Kat, see how many I can get after this semester. I guess I love Kit Kat! =)


Friday, December 31, 2010

Uniquely Singapore


It's the last day of 2010, everybody is hilarious about the sudden public holiday which was only announced 2 days ago, because Malaysia won the stup*d football match, here you go, 1 more public holiday! Many people are quite satisfied about the long weekend, busy shopping or partying, seems like everybody is drowned in the happy atmosphere and nobody really cares about the year that will end in less than 24 hours time.

2010 is just another ordinary year, for most of us. However, I have experienced something different a few days ago. I had my "virgin backpacking trip" to Singapore! The lion city is the second foreign country I've been to. (Hongkong is not considered a country, so there was only Malaysia on my list) My staying in a hostel was absolutely by accident. Planned to stay with a friend of mine, but something unexpected happened just one night before I left KL thus I ended up staying in a hostel in Chinatown.

I've never thought of how a hostel would look like, the one I chose was very cozy, fully furnished with IKEA furniture, the staff were great, friendly and helpful. My first conversation with a Singaporean was in English as I'm not sure whether she can speak Mandarin, however later I found out that most Singaporeans do speak Mandarin. Every time I asked for direction in English, people would answer me in Mandarin. There accent is different from Malaysian, they are more inclined to Taiwan accent. The owner of my hostel speaks authentic Taiwan style Mandarin which made me adjust my Malaysianised tone to adapt him.

People were surprised to know that I'm from China as I'm just too "Malaysian". Both my English and Mandarin are totally gone, I use Cantonese and Hokkien words from time to time. Therefore I got my nickname there: Fake Orang M'sia. It was fun to stay with many other guys and girls from all over the world. Majority of them were travelling alone, typical backpacker, travel is an indivisible part of their life, like the blood in their veins. I've met plenty of interesting people and now we became friends. It's really a blessing in disguise that I was not able to stay at my friend's place!

I had tons of unforgettable memories during my stay there. I got lost on Christmas night when I was looking for the Merlion. Alone, wandering in the pouring rain in the empty streets. Frustrated, yes I admit there was a little , but meantime I enjoyed the freedom and kept on snapping everything I've passed by. As a result, I discovered some places many people have never been to: National Library, Management University, Chijmes, St Andrew's Cathedral etc. I was walking around the city hall area round and round, finally I reached Fullerton Hotel. Really had a nice time walking along the Singapore river, knowing nobody around, having no direction, not being disturbed by cell phones, just randomly looked up in the sky and take a look at all the office buildings at Raffles Place, imagining I may work there soon. I was devoured by thoughts, so was rain. I really learnt that umbrellas don't work at all in South East Asian countries. When the thunder and wind starts, everything is useless. So it's better to enjoy the rain rather than being afraid of getting wet. ( I got a water proof camera, so no worries for me :p)

Singapore is a highly developed and organised country. Tap water is drinkable and water is really precious there. 2 things you are absolutely certain, it's clean and safe. So I'm not worried at all hanging in the street alone at night. There are plenty of rules, you can't litter, you can't drink or eat at MRT station (and that's why you can't find any rubbish bin in every station, I have to put the used tissue in my pocket and I got 3 or 4 "dumplings" in my jeans after a whole day) Chewing gum is prohibited in the country, which really bothers some western backpackers, they feel like there is no freedom at all, the rules are just too strict.

However, there are pros and cons, if you view it from another angel, the strict rules give rise to high efficiency as well. All the pavements are fenced and only the entrance of pedestrian crosswalk are open, which literally curb those people who love to cross the road randomly at anywhere. It reduces accidents, improves the image of the city as a whole. Another interesting thing is, you can find a 60-year-old waiter in fast food restaurant! That's because their retirement age is 65, the senior citizens have the equal right to work as youngsters, there is no discrimination, either ethnically or sexually. I kind of like the "fair play" policy after being treated so unfairly for so many years.(When I entered Singapore custom, the officer greeted me with a big smile and he answered my question regarding to my multi-entry visa politely. However, when I came back to JB, the Malay guy at the custom scrutinized me from head to toe after seeing my China passport. It took a long time for him to decide whether to ask me questions or just chop and let me go. Finally he didn't say anything and just let me pass. I said "happy new year" to him and he didn't even raise his eyebrow!)

Singapore is like any big city in China, full of high-risings, the real estate price is incredibly high and it's almost crowded everywhere. The big difference is it's much cleaner and comfortable with the tropical weather I love. It's a nice place to work and to live. Food, transportation and garments are at very affordable prices. ( I can never forget I took bus for 27 stops and the fare was only $1) I bought 2 "I love SG" souvenir T-shirts at Giordano, hopefully I won't be beaten up if I wear it in KL :p

A lesson learnt, the globe is just a village, there are many different families inside the village, each of them has their own traits. It's worth visiting other families, gain more exposure and learn the different culture. Don't ground yourself in your comfort zone, you may experience pleasant exploration!








Sunday, December 19, 2010

往事不堪回首月明中

转眼又到了年底,我又该开始我的年终总结了.考试结束已经有好几天,我却比考试之前的总复习还要忙得夸张,似乎只有每年的6月和12月才有时间去见见朋友,出去散散心.有考试压在头顶,就算是出去玩,心也是散得不彻底.

那天看到朋友facebook的status:2010 is ending soon, what have you done?我觉得看到这个问题的时候心好痛. 这一年里面我做了什么?不知道,读书吧,pass了3科,12月的这两科要等明年2月才出成绩,希望也是个P吧.然后呢?读了几本小说,认识了几个新朋友,失去了几个老朋友,写了几首歌,剩下的便是对生活中点滴的领悟了.我讨厌每次盘点的时候的那种捶胸顿足,为什么我什么都没做就又过了一年?于是便在新年伊始的时候憋一口气,害怕"yesterday once more",但是无一例外的,往事肯定会重演.我的热情不会超过三分钟,杯具.

都已经几岁了,这样下去也不是办法,HL要走了,没人再像妈妈一样追在我屁股后面叫我乖乖读书了,不过既然是最后的学生时代,我觉得还是要让它辉煌一下,不要留下遗憾.这样单纯可爱的日子以后永远不会再有,想到就觉得有点伤感.但是我应该知足了,懒散迷茫了那么久,现在也该醒了吧.未来在招手,不管我愿不愿意,它总是会来,那么我还不如开开心心的迎接它.

朋友说我脑袋里面的弯弯太多,凡事都想太多,我不知道是好事还是坏事.神经大条的人没那么敏感,也没那么容易受伤害,可以从思考的层面上说,他们可能会错过很多值得去冥想的东西.但是想太多的又没地方发泄的人容易疯掉,比如我们的安娜.考试之前总会做很奇怪的梦,梦到那些不该梦见的人和事,尘封在岁月里已久的不该翻阅的记忆,通通在我面临考试压力的时候跑出来.以后我要是有机会当电影导演,那么我自己的梦将是绝佳的剧本.

假期两个礼拜说长不长说短不短,我的"档期"排得很满,很多有意义的事情在等着我,我熬了半年,也就最期待这两个礼拜,好好的放松,以一个全新的自我迎接新的一年,迎接最后的挑战!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

不可能的明天

睁开我双眼 往事又重演

拨动我心弦 痛彻了心扉

上锁的房间 独自想念


在绝望边缘 梦最终幻灭

所有都沉淀 瞬间变成灰

心中的冬天 悲伤无限


那么远 你走得头也不回删掉昨天

这么多年 剩下我独自幻想不可能的明天


定格了时间 不敢再向前

在我的世界 你就是一切

这样的梦魇 没有终点


那么远 你走得头也不回删掉昨天

这么多年 剩下我独自幻想不可能的明天


你走了 留下我 和我的思念那么多

浑浑噩噩要怎么过


那么远 你头也不回删掉昨天

这么多年 剩下我独自幻想不可能的明天