当未来变成现在

时钟在日月不停的滴嗒着，我们每天都在看时间，但是很少会想，每一分钟每一小时的过去意味着什么。朋友说：转眼之间，我们曾经所谓的未来都变成了眼前的每一个现在，是不是我们老了？关于“老”这个字眼，我很少提及，因为我从来不觉得自己“老”。虽然自从开始读ACCA之后每天是混在一群比自己小的孩子当中，但我把自己的心态调整得跟他们一样，所以我觉得我forever 21，从来没有去想，2字头已经去了一半了，是不是该考虑找个人嫁了？（哇，好可怕(⊙o⊙)，不能有这样的念头！）

周末上了一次云顶，在快两年没去过山顶之后，再次去吹风。晚上一群人在ktv包厢里发疯，该唱的唱该跳的跳该喝的喝该倒的倒。老样子，我还是滴酒不沾，唯一不同的是，以前疯到早上都没事的我，现在到半夜好像就有些力不从心了。半夜3点多睡觉，第二天10点多起床，整个脑袋都要爆了的感觉，眼睛需要火柴棍来撑开，要不是山顶的冷风，我看我走路都是头朝地的。第二天晚上9点就像尸体一般爬上床了，直到第二天9点才睁眼，可是让人费解的是12个小时的睡眠过后，我还是像尸体一样。用一瓶可乐让自己强打起精神，眼睛是睁开了，不过心里的谜题没解开。难道真的是身体在给我讯号提醒我现在的我已经不是当初的我了？

看着周围比我小四五岁的人，我觉得自己跟他们的区别不光是在那个数字上，很多思想观念，很多生活经历，对事物的看法都不一样。真的是三年一代啊，代沟很明显！可是他们的优势是时间，撞了墙壁可以回头，一句话，还经得起折腾！我觉得我的一把老骨头可能折腾不起了，虽然在YC跟SG的眼里我还是很嫩， 继续我的slogan，forever 21! Blek~

We are nothing at all

Nowadays the No.1 headline of every single news press is the catastrophe in Japan. It happened just 1 week ago, 9.0 magnitude earthquake followed by 10-metre high tsunami and subsequently was the explosion at the nuclear power station. Japan, 1 of the most developed country in the world, has turned into the most destroyed modern civilization that I've ever seen.

The aftermath of the disaster is far more serious than we can imagine. People all over the world are concerned about the possible radiation emission. Even thousand miles apart, at the US, the panicking crowd are buying iodine supplements like mad because they naively thought it can help them prevent radiation contamination. In China, the chaos of fighting for salt is on-going which is really ridiculous. Most supermarkets and hypermarkets have run out of salt, even in 7-11 you also can't find the most common and immaterial daily seasoning. And the most absurd news is a guy died because of excessive dose of salt and became the first victim out of Japan! What a joke!

I have no idea how much lesson human beings has learnt from all these natural disasters. Or they simply think it has nothing to do with them because it's not something that happened to them yet. However, there is only 1 planet, I guess us human beings should be on the same boat when we need to fight for our own tomorrow, although none of us knows whether there is tomorrow and how many tomorrows do we still have. We can't even determine our own future and we are extremely dependent on so many external factors to survive. We claim to be the king of everything but actually we are nothing.

Feeling kind of Sunday blue (well as I don't have Monday blue). After a busy week, finally have some private time to carry out my own silly meditation. Just now saw the video by NameWee on youtube, actually I never really liked him but I admit he is talented and sarcastic enough. But this time, the lyrics and rhythm seems so piercing and every word is a pinch in my heart. And I suddenly feel that I should cherish the present moment more. Everything I have, every people I know, every tiny little pieces in my life, as they are not eternal. Out of suddenly I miss so many people, my beloved and my dear friends. So many of you guys are just, irreplaceable, that's the word pop out of my mind. I love you all!

The 7 billion creatures, please wake up, as we are really nothing at all...

难呀难呀难

今天，第一次用我的预付手机打给人家超过一个小时，一直聊到没钱断线，真是破了我不喜欢打电话的记录。不过电话那头的哭声真的让我很心痛，痛得不忍心挂电话，最后还是hotlink毫不留情的帮我解决了这个难题。

有人问：为什么做人那么难？我心里想的是，不难的话就不叫人了。人有人存在的价值，有价值的话肯定会经历更巨大的考验。就像所谓的：能力越强大，责任就越重。所以我们没必要去埋怨生活里的不顺，换个角度看吧，天将降大任于斯人也，谁知道呢你说是不是？

最近YC跟WY还有米米都出了点状况，都是跟我手心手背的人，我看在眼里都痛在心上。我能做什么呢？除了当一个忠实的听众，时不时挖空心思出点馊主意之外，剩下的我也无能为力吧。可以说是自家的稀饭还没吹冷，没办法帮人家吹汤圆。不过我觉得我没那么容易被打倒，常年以来已经磨砺出了我这颗橡皮轮胎做的心。在悬崖边上也是要笑着安慰自己，不远的地方肯定有个树枝可以给我抱。多么希望我这样子无厘头无根据的乐天主义能影响到身边的每一个人啊，但是那种坚定的信念并不是每个人都能有的吧，哎...

很多人羡慕我，从他们看我的眼神就可以知道。他们觉得我无忧无虑，每天很开心很闲，想吃就吃，想玩就玩，ACCA读到今天也一切顺利。可是实际情况并非如此啊。老实说，如果可以的话，我倒想跟很多人换换，我给你们我所拥有的一切，换你们的一切，你们未必愿意就是了。接受你所不能改变的吧，人与人根本就是不同的，但是我们有一个相同点，那就是不可能有100%完美的生活，总有些事情是会让我们头痛的。难事摆在眼前，我们用怎样的心态来看待它就会make一个很大的difference。大家一起加油吧！